i like this song. anyways, i've fixed a little bit. things still suck and i am still mad from earlier, but i odnt know what to say if the opportunity arised to talk. but that one thing i lost control over a few weeks ago has been restored. i just had to pay attention and try something else. and it worked. i found some stuff in the trash can. weird stuff. newer stuff. i dont remember it. my arms are in such bad shaperight now. and whats hard ro bleive is i've done NONE of it. when youve got cats that will just sit and grab onto you and try an dtear you to shreds you don have much need to do it yourself. it stings too. more/better. i dont know right now... like... anything. i'm really hungry but i wont eat. i'm really tired but i wont sleep. really want to write and vent but i can't. i dont know why. i need people to talk to.. i need to clear my mind. i have some things of mine from yesterday to put here. oh well. i was just sprayed witha sprinkler. thats got to be good for the computer. i want to go to starbucks again and get another frap.