Okay, I don't think that in the entire history of my music buying days have I gotten a CD ONE DAY after it has come out!!! Last year I bought Good Charlotte Chronicles of Life and Death less than a week after it came out, but yesterday I bought The 2005 Warped Tour Compilation. Let me just say, it fucking rocks. I am so serious. There are some songs that you're kind of like... okay... to, but most of them are headbanging catchy things... and there was only ONE song on the cd that I even knew. and they are all pretty good. i know i am being so lamely superficial, but i had money, i went to shopko, i found the little sign in the cd aisle that said "2005 warped tour compliation: $8.99" but there were no cds of it there, so i walked down the aisle looking for anything else good, and i got out to the end where all the best sellers are, and there it was. but, it was not $8.99, no, it was $6.99!!! so of course i bought it. i also got it too because it had hawthorne heights on it... i love ohio is for lovers. i am just happy. because i have plenty to listen to now. and i am happy because im getting more money and stuff to go to best buy and blow it all on music/books, and tomorrow is friday, and that is when our little thing is. when arjay dn paul and jordan (hopefully) come over and we dye our hair and have a jolly ole' time, then arjay is going to try and make out with paul on my bed. and i have to walk in on them... either with or without jordan... i really really hope that when arjay called him yesterday she told him what she told me she was going to tell him. i hope that arjay's plan works. and then i hope that... well yeah. ugh.... take arjay's lead wiht me... i dreamt about those kisses.. those lips. i got this book.. and it may not be the most grammatically accurate book, but the words suck you in... it made me cry. that might have been in part from crying earlier and not ahving it all out... wishing something really bad would happen in my life so that i could cry to him again... have him kiss away the hurt and hold me like we used to hold eachother.... i miss it so much... and tomorrow, it will have been 7 months since we last kissed... oh yeah i got bored last night after watching uptown girls. I wrote to really lame poems. I want you I want you here To watch me cry to hold me, wipe away my tears Kiss me and tell me its okay I want you to understand why i Feel the way i do I want you to make me smile Make me laugh again I want you to know what i feel for you I want you to be here for me When I need you, like i've needed you So many timesin the past I want you with me again Right beside me, Protecing me And smiling I want you to love me The way that i've loved you (c)s.a.m. 6.8.05 untitled my tears have come again reddening my cheeks making them hopelessly sore and raw These tears are shed in part for you And even though you maynot care... I still want you Sometimes I still se it in your eyes Sometimes it tkaes all my strength Not to cry in front of you TO hold back my aching embraces Wondering ot myself If they'd matter If anything does to you Wondering if you ever really cared (c)s.a.m. 6.8.05