ArJay: still talk chat_bac_gurl_16: ok chat_bac_gurl_16: bout..? ArJay: i dono chat_bac_gurl_16: um.. okay... ArJay: jordan hates me lalalala paul mad chat_bac_gurl_16: i doubt jordan hates you. chat_bac_gurl_16: y do u think he does ArJay: y ArJay: he is mean and acts like he dont remember chat_bac_gurl_16: o. chat_bac_gurl_16: i just cant really imagine jordan hating u ArJay: i can chat_bac_gurl_16: oh chat_bac_gurl_16: thats better than... well yeah ArJay: he hate sme chat_bac_gurl_16: if u say so ArJay: chat_bac_gurl_16: thats the only reasons you have for thinking he hates you chat_bac_gurl_16: what/ chat_bac_gurl_16: ?* ArJay: he acts like it chat_bac_gurl_16: well we always thought he hated me and he claims he didnt chat_bac_gurl_16: claimed* ArJay: he hasnt said he hasnt about me chat_bac_gurl_16: he doesnt have nearly as many reasons to hate you ArJay: r u sure ArJay: u never yelled at him, threw soda at him coz u were mad, followed him home arguing whole way... chat_bac_gurl_16: yeah but u also made up for it. ArJay: eh chat_bac_gurl_16: if you think he hates you then think he hates you ArJay: ok chat_bac_gurl_16: i dont really understand...but oh well ArJay: he has never told me he didnt hate me chat_bac_gurl_16: i thougth he had ArJay: no chat_bac_gurl_16: oh ArJay: not since the last fight chat_bac_gurl_16: when was that ArJay: promotion sorta chat_bac_gurl_16: oh ArJay: we were full of tension chat_bac_gurl_16: oh ArJay: yea ArJay: after we went intot he school... chat_bac_gurl_16: o...k.. ArJay: dont take my o...k... chat_bac_gurl_16: well i dont know how else ot put it ArJay: o chat_bac_gurl_16: mmhm chat_bac_gurl_16: what happened after u went in the school chat_bac_gurl_16: i was w/ u ArJay: he was mad chat_bac_gurl_16: oh ArJay: sry chat_bac_gurl_16: for what ArJay: whining chat_bac_gurl_16: oh. chat_bac_gurl_16: ...its ok ArJay: no its no chat_bac_gurl_16: y dont u think so ArJay: all i do is whine chat_bac_gurl_16: no chat_bac_gurl_16: its not ArJay: yea chat_bac_gurl_16: k.. ArJay: la ArJay: i need a makeout buddy chat_bac_gurl_16: ok chat_bac_gurl_16: then find one.. ArJay: who? chat_bac_gurl_16: dunno. mebbe terri or matth or... someoen ArJay: yea ArJay: g2g/brb one of the 2 chat_bac_gurl_16: dont think it would be much of a problem chat_bac_gurl_16: ok ********************************************* bats fly out into this night. vampiers seek their prey. you and i, wer're in this all alone. these worthless embraces and butterfly kisses. i love you too much, and i missed your voice. sing me a lulubye and rock. me. to. sleep. keep the wilted rose. it was always meant foryou. i pulled the thorns off to protect you. cut me deeper. this loving blood sacrifice. 7/31/05 i can hear the tears in your voice. i can feel your pain. i can tell its what you want to do. i can tell you need to be loved. want to be needed. long to be held. in arms weaker than yours. i feel the tears in teh corners of my eyes. you know what i want... how i feel. i need to be held, but i've given up on being loved. no matter what is said i feel like somethings wrong.... but i still need to be held. 7/31/05