(april 13) FUCK THAT SHE IS AN EVIL LIAR SLUT FACED BITCH. he has hurt her. it3 hurt it2. in a way, i do feel bad for her because she is.....my friend... but in a different way, i laugh at her because she lied to me and was finally honest to some point, and she now has some idea of how i feel. but he is a fucking prick. so at pegasette, she is trying to be nice to him and "sort things out" well we all know how fabuloous he is at that. and he puts his headphones on and ignores her. and for someone who "love(d/s)" her, he wouldnt even sit by her. and he goes before we were typing shit up "i looked in the mirror last night and i realized i hate the person looking back at me" well jordan, i truly hate youtoo, and i hate myself as well. not to uh......make you feel "worse". he really did look bad though. like.....I almost felt bad. when arjay got sent to teh corner to type stuff for them, jordan was typing a love poem and hejust keeps going oh my god this is so bad. and he goes "from writer to writer read it." so i lean in like, trying to get the paper copy and he just sort of moved away like he was expecting me to lean in in front of him and just read the computer screen. sorry to disappoint. it was very very strange last week on thursday when i got slammed into him. very very strange that i got all warm (not in like a nasty sick way) and so i take it and every time i read the word "love" i went i hate that word i hate that word and then gave it back to him and went "yep that is bad it makes me want to go blech" it is strange . i want to read his poems, since one of mine is sort of based on one of his to try and piss him off. oh well. i am better than him. i must remeber this. arjay got all pissed at him because he wouldnt talk to her at or after pegasette and he hasnt gotten online to talk to her either. she called him and talked to him for liek 2 minutes she says and it got nowhere. i could feel these really bad vibes from just talking to her via YIM. but...... i understand her more tahn she knows... i wish the three of us could actually get along. well arjay and i get along, but jordan is just being... all psychotic and evil as no real surprise. and her parents are being all mean. i feel bad for my friend. she actually does feel like my friend again... which is good i guess. so i am messenger lady if he gets online. will have to check his email if he doesnt get on AIM. oh well. there are so many evil fucking psychos in the world all of different genres... and the ones that can hurt most dont give a shit. man....it hurts. and nobody even seems to care even when they're only friends of the evil. i have to go to the stupidass choir feildtrip now because they changed the date of the GT one. damn. i was so hip on not having to sing. oh well... damnit though. i need to write. ladada. no i cannot do that anymore. no ladada filler. must not. YAY ME! I HAVENT CUT AT ALL DESPITE HOW BAD THINGS SEEMED. its a really stupid thing to be proud of...but... "i'd bleed myself dry for you and then ask youhow you felt." she needs to give me that poem.