i have just decided the main thing in myl ife right now is music. besides self pity, but i focus on music just about all the time. people in the bands, the evil suicidal screaming words of the songs. its psycho. i miss people. mainly tasha and robyn and jordan. apparently arjay is pissed at jordan for some reason or another becasue i asked her yesterday if she'd talked to him and she goes "no nor do i want to." hooray. i know its evil to want friends to be mad at eachother.... but i can't really help it. my psycho sick twisted mind wants psycho sick twisted things.