I FUCKING HATE MONDAYS!!!!!!!!! OOH GODDAMMIT. YOU KNOW FORGET MY ENTRY LAST MONDAY. I THINK I AM GOING TO DELETE IT. HM... PERHAPS. WELL ON LAST WORDS LAST NIGHT SHE WAS GOING ALL "I FEEL REJECTED BY IDIOT" WELL THATS NOT MY FUCKING PROBLEM. ITS YOURS DEAL WITH IT. AND I WALK INTO THE LIBRARY THIS MORNING WITH SARA AND TASHA AND HTERE SHE IS NEXT TO HIM ON THE COUCH SHOULDER TO SHOULDER, TOUCHING HIM AND ALL. WHICH PISSES ME OFF FOR TWO REASONS: ONE BECAUSE SHE IS FUCKING ALL OVER HIM. TWO BECAUSE I ACTUALLY CARE. REFER TO I HATE ME. AFTER ALL HE'S PUT ME THROUGH AND I CAN EVEN STILL CONTEMPLATE THAT SHIT... MAN.....I'M MORE MESSED THAN I THOUGHT. SO THEN I GOT TO GO TO ADVISORY, BY FAR THE BEST PERIOD OF THE WHOLE DAY. CJ HAS MORE WORDS ON HIS LEGS. I'D LOVE TO WRITE HATE ON ME SOMEWHERE.. ON MY LEG OR SOMEWHERE... CLASS MEETING. HAD TO WAIT FOR SARA. SO WE GO IN AND SIT DOWN AND TOWARDS THE END SARA GOES "IS IT JUST ME OR DOES IT LOOK LIKE THEY ARE HOLDING HANDS?" BECAUSE ARJAY HAS SAID BEFORE THAT SHE DOESNT LIKE TO. WHEN SCOTT TOLD ME ALL THAT "BULL" ABOUT HER HOLDING HIS HAND AT THE MOVIE ON NES'S BDAY. AND I LOOK BACK AND SURE ENOUGH THERE THEY ARE. SHES STARING AT THEIR HANDS AND THEY ARE STROKING EACHOTHERS HANDS. THE REST OF TEH DAY WAS SHITTY. MAJORLY. ARJAY GOT SPRAYED W/ JACKIES DIET PEPSI AT LUNCH. IT WAS FUNNY. I LAUGHED SO MUCH IT HURT. AND THEN THERE'S PEGASETTE OH JOY. MOM WAS GONNA GIVE ME A RIDE, THEN ARJAY WANTED ME TO WALK W/ HER AND THE EVIL FUCKING ASSHOLE. WELL I GUESS SHE IS TOO. AND AT PEGASETTE, THEY GO TO HANG UP FLYERS AND LEAVE ME ALONE. I HATE BEING LEFT ALONE JUST FOR THE RECORD... THEY COME BACK, I HAVE TO MOVE TO GET MY COMP TO WORK WHICH IT NEVER DID... AND SHES THERE NEXT TO HIM AGAIN, PRACTICALLY ON HIS LAP AND HER HAND IS ON THE INSIDE OF HIS THIGH. AND SHE'S RUBBING HIM. EW. IT DISGUSTED ME. AND SHE DOESNT LIKE TO HAVE HIM HANG ON HER EH? SO SHE LETS HIM. THEN I DECIDE I REALLY DONT WANT TO WALK WITH THEM, SO I TEXT MOM AN DASK HER FOR A RIDE. I FIGURE IT GIVES THEM MORE TIME TO WALK AND TALK AND DO WHATEVER THE FUCK THEY DO TOGETHER. THEY LEAVE AND I TURN THE RETARD COMPUTER OFFAND I GO OUT TO WAIT FOR MOM, AND I LOOK DOWN THE HALL, AND THERE THEY ARE, WEAVING ACROSS THE HALL AT TIMES SLOWING DOWN AND BECOMING ONE SILLOUHETTE IN THE SUN SHINING THROUGH THE NORTH DOORS. MOM SAW THEM ON THE WAY THERE ON THE CORNER. ARJAY SAID HI TING TANG. OH HOW CUTE I'M GONNA THROW UP. AND SINCE THIS WAS LIKE THREE HOURS AGO, AND ARJAY USUALLY GETS ONLINE WHEN SHE GETS HOME AND HAS NOTHIGN TO DO, THEY ARE PROBABLY AT ONE OR OTHERS HOUSE. PROBABLY HIS UP IN HIS ROOM FUCKING EACHOTHER ORMAKING OUT. SOMETHING JUST OH SO LOVELY. I NEED TO REMEMBER I MUST NOT GO SOFT AGAIN. I'VE GOT TO BE THAT VINDICTIVE BITCH I WAS ACCUSED OF. AFTER SCHOOL TOMORROW SINCE I FORGOT TODAY, I'M WEARING MY BANGKOK SHIRT HE SAID I CAN KICK BOYS IN THE CROTCH WHEN I WEAR IT, SO TOMORROW WHILE/IF WE'RE WALKING OUTSIDE, I REALLY WAN TTO GO OH JORDAN THIS IS FROM YESTERDAY SINCEI FORGOT- AND THEN KICK HIM AND GO GET IN THE CAR. I WANT TO MAKE THEM HURT. I KNOW IVE SAID IT A MILLION TIMES BEFORE AND IT IS PRETTY MUCH IMPOSSIBLE. I WAN TOT MAKE THEM UNDERSTAND WHAT THEY DO TO ME. IF I WOULDNT GET IN TROBLE, I'D PROBABLY KILL THEM JUST TO SHOW HIM THAT HIS LIFE DOESNT MATTER TO ME EITHER, AND SHOW HER THAT THAT'S PRETTY MUCH WHAT SHE HAS DONE TO ME WITH HER LIES.