more poems. it was getting too long. ________________________________________________ Goodbye A “gift” to return but cannot, A decision to be made, not wanted. Tears to cry–not shed. A day of loss, Still filled with love Mere tears and words cannot express Our pain. An angel above, fear inside, As we stood beside you and said Goodbye. Gone in body, remaining in spirit. Our greatest loss. An angel in your hand, love in our eyes As we stood beside you and said Goodbye. 8-3-04 ___________________________________________________ War The sword is unsheathed, It flashes in the scarlet light Of a thousand fires. Deaths brought about by The fury of a single soul. No remorse... Followers gathered To avenge. Pity toward the one who Claims to have lost. Wielding the sword around, Causing so much pain. No forgiveness... The war will end, Yet all shall weep. 1/23/05 War The sword is unsheathed, It flashes in the scarlet light Of a thousand fires. Deaths brought about by The fury of a single soul. No remorse... Followers gathered To avenge. Pity toward the one who Claims to have lost. Wielding the sword around, Causing so much pain. No forgiveness... The war will end, Yet all shall weep. 1/23/05 ________________________________________________ Tears Curled up in a corner, Crying a heart out. Tears Falling from eyes, Like rain from the sky. Every word left a scar, Trying to cry the pain away, The tears run, Falling to the floor, Sinking, Like spirits Lost causes... The tears have been shed, Still the scars are deep. 1/27/05 ____________________________________________________ Unknown Unknown eyes are watching Unknown ears are listening The trees whisper to the skies Nothing is safe from them, The thieves of sanity Thieves of your secrets. Telling everything, Ignoring your pleads Hearing your darkest thoughts Betraying Your every trust. 1/13/05 ___________________________________________________ Mistakes I’ve made mistakes, I’ve paid for them. Through pain, Regret and loss. I am reminded everyday. I’ve hurt so many, Myself included. I beg and plead for forgiveness, Yet it is silent and you can’t hear. So now I say aloud what has taken So long to say at all. I just want to be forgiven, I wish I could take back the hurt, I want us to be friends again I pray I can forget I’ve made mistakes, I’ve paid for them. I’ve paid with you. I lost an amazing friend. 3/3/05 ___________________________________________________ Nobody Nobody to care, Nobody to like. Nobody to talk to, Nobody to listen. Nobody to see, Nobody to wipe away the tears. Nobody to trust, Nobody to love. Nobody to know, Nobody to understand. 3/3/05 ____________________________________________________ Valentine’s Day An overrated holiday Another excuse to overspend. True meaning swept away by Greed. Money doesn’t show it, Money cannot but it, Love is what it was about Love is all that matters. __________________________________________________ To Touch The Stars That winter we were young, Full of hope and inquiry Try to touch the stars, See them falling to the ground. Full of hope an inquiry, Watch the snowflakes dance. See them falling to the ground Tiny little stars. Watch the snowflakes dance Sparkling in the night. Tiny little stars Silly little dreams Sparkles in the night That winter we were young With silly little dreams, like Trying to touch the stars. __________________________________________________ Free They slump through the halls She floats above them They pretend to be happy She genuinely glows They pretend to laugh at her She doesn’t really care. She knows she is loved. __________________________________________________ Thoughts Morbid thoughts of life and death, Silent tears that no one knows. Left to think their life away, Left alone. Thoughts of mutilation Thoughts of murder, Driven to insanity, With nowhere else to go. 4/12/03 __________________________________________________ If I Could I think of how to get over it I try my best to move on But all the thoughts come back to one thing, This time that thing is you. I try to convince myself, That it really was nothing, But you made me believe. They told me you said what I wanted to hear, And I told you what I knew. What I wouldn’t give To have it all again. If I could take what’s hurt you back, I would. If I could hate you, I would. But it’s a stupid dream, Because you say we never even had it. 1/4/04 _________________________________________________ Bound Kept bound up with locks and chains Quarantined somewhere unknown Restrained from any freedom Never to be released Imprisoned. For now at least... It shall remain hidden Punished for all the pain it’s caused, Love Bound up with locks and chains. _________________________________________________ Fake You try to impress us all You pretend to be something fake I pity you You feel you have to keep up This ridiculous Charade To impress us. It doesn’t matter. We’d all be more impressed If you could prove to us that You have a brain and a Sense of individuality, But all you know is fake, And we weep for you Because you’re lost. ________________________________________________ this one is lame but kind of funny... Can I Walk You Home? Can I walk you home? Sure. Can I hold your hand? No. Why? Because my hands are full. Can I take your books? Sure. Can I hold your hand? No. Why? Because now YOUR hands are full. _________________________________________________ FALL When the ones you love leave you You feel like all you can do is cry. You wish they were there, To wipe away the tears, To hold you and tell you it’s all okay And you wonder if things ever really will be again You imagine But the dream is broken the tears are still there Nobody is holding you up, And you fall, Until there is nothing left to feel 11/13/04 ________________________________________________ WHAT DID I DO TO YOU? WHY DID YOU DO IT? WHY DID YOU HURT ME? WHAT DID I DO TO YOU? WHY DID YOU SAY IT? HOW DID YOU MEAN IT? WHAT DID I DO TO YOU? WHERE DID I GO WRONG? WHAT DID YOU WANT SO BAD? WHAT DID I DO TO YOU? HOW WOULD YOU LIKE IT? I DON’T THINK YOU WOULD. THAT’S WHAT I COULD DO TO YOU. BUT I’M BETTER THAN THAT I’M BETTER THAN YOU I DON’T CARE WHAT HAPPENS TO YOU! WHY DID YOU DO IT? WHY DID YOU HURT ME? WHAT DID I DO TO YOU? __________________________________________________ A Smile When I was feeling sad, Do you remember? You smiled and I smiled back. When I was scared, Do you remember? You squeezed my hand and I squeezed back. When I said goodbye, Do you remember? You hugged me and I hugged back. When we laughed, Do you remember? You kissed me and I kissed back. You said it first, Do you remember? You said “I love you” and I said it back 11/9/04 _______________________________________________