more like pitiful. i went thru and cleaned out my inbox. oh god... i wish i handn't. i read through all the fuckign emails from arjay. she lied to me for such a long time. it fucking makes me want to hate her. she seems to think friday is like our "hang out" day. well i'm not fucking sleeping at her house AGAIN. it is hot and uncomfortable. if she wants one... it will be at my house. god. i am so angry at myself right now. i can't beleive i listened to her and was convinced she was my friend back then. i should have just told them about the emails and gotten it all over with.