yeah... i only half know why. like i was so sure of, i am going to spend my summer being paranoid about jordan and arjay. unless something GOOD happens in the way of him tomorrow or wednesday. but those are pretty much my only chances for redemption... i feel like such a fucking idiot and i really hate it. tomorrow... despite that we're going to lagoon, i think it will suck. i'd bet any money that i have extra to spend tomorrow that they are going to tag along with eachother, and that i wont have a single goddamn motherfucking moment to talk to him or her. not that it would surprise me at all obviously. like i told her... oh shit i just forgot. oh well. nothing more worth writing about my fucked up stuff.