it's a strange mood for me to be in... surely. but he is the root of today, basically. last night when i got offline, arjay was pretending to be kyle to jordan to piss him off. and then she comes and tells me this morning that he he did get mad. and so later... in like... second i think? she goes to me "You need to tell him to get online after school that you need to talk to him about kyle and me and that you still think they are cheating and that you want him to drag it out of me. and he will then we'll go from there." i really kind of did, but at the same time not, because we arent exactly friends by him (jordan and i by him)so all day she's going to me you gotta tell him. i didnt after third or second, even though i sort of wanted to,so she tells me to do it after sixth, and i never even saw him so i couldnt do it then, and i really didnt want to beg him with spoken words at school... so i wrote hima note. a rather nice note. i said please about a million times, and after i gave all the exemplary reasons arjay told me to give him, i went "even though i know we aren't exactly friends (by you)i am begging you and praying that you will do this for me, despite all of our differences... please? please?" i started to write arjay part of it but the bell rang so i didnt get a chance to finish. but i got some written and i gave jordan his note and told him to read it... i dunno if he did... and now he is online, and i am all freaky and ^jittery^ because i dont know if and when arjay is gonna get on and/or if and when i should talk to jordan. i think i might ask him if he read it... i just don't want him to hate me. i don't think i can handle being HATED by anyone.