ok i cannot write alot about today... but... in the dressing room before the play arjay goes "do you still like him" and i told her the truth. "not really. i mean that stupid psychotic part of my mind does... but i don't really anymore". she told paul she liked him. and... unfortunately, jordan came to watch our play. so he doesn't hate her. but during the play, i kept looking at him over in his little "corner" and i dont know why. i really dont. then after he nearly crashed into me like three times... and was helping us clean up per ms. rounds request... adn i dunno...all i really have to say to arjay is "oh god i want to die. i still do".