i cannot believe i never even fucking came here yesterday. too fucking busy playing runescape. and whats horrible is that even though i've promised myself i'd only play for 2 hours.... i doubt i will. after a while, spending all your time on sitdiary DOES become tiring, and what good did it do me? not much really. of course, there are some very juicy entries... but i could ahve just written them in my journal. and i've been so bored lately... that i have made the huge mistake of going thru my word documents and reading them. well, many of them are dealing with that whole hell formerly known as winter and spring. i've got all the things i found on there, and i'm going insane because i dont know now... i've got arjay saying that she thought he was an excuse to get hurt. oh my god..... i just feel really bad whenever i read any of it. it makes me want to hurt them or hurt myself. yeah anyway but yesterday i didnt do much of anything. played on the comptuer alot. talked to tash and arjay and liz... played rs, tehn it began to storm beatutifully outside, so i got off and went in the living room to wait for mom to get home from the condo and stuff and tony minorly wigged. but it was just gorgeous. so strangely calming. went to ihop again. it is sad. the ppl there know who we are. well... julianne anyway. we got beanie babies too. pookie, pokey, lumpy, and cheesely. hurrah!