I am so.... I don't know. I fucking love her. She loves me too. I feel like i've been ripped apart at the seams.... we were in love with eachother and we didn't know it... and now.......... i guess... we do. "braces are hot" "I thought she was beautiful, but I changed it to cool." "I can't get over that night..." "that was the one time I wanted her as more than a friend." "she was in LOVE with this fucking girl." .... "i love you too." I just want to be near her right now. with her..... something. i wish we had to go shopping tonight.... I wish....... so much. I love her..... Is that why it's always hurt so fucking bad?