hm.. htis is wierd. even if he says he didnt, i think jordan may have told paul about what arjay said yesterday. if convo is done in due time i'll post it. ************************************** well now its friday... i completely lost the squirrelwraithe/wallakwalla part of the convo...but oh well i guess. preppysux (3:10:06 PM): hey chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:10:16 PM): hey preppysux (3:10:35 PM): its thursday hoorah preppysux (3:10:49 PM): my sis is taking me to the bank later when we go get dinner so im excited. i got a raise chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:10:53 PM): cool chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:11:02 PM): two plus sides to tomorrow for you then? preppysux (3:11:16 PM): yes preppysux (3:11:23 PM): wait... preppysux (3:11:32 PM): o. that i have moneyANDim off yea preppysux (3:11:52 PM): my hair is all somewhat skater-y chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:12:02 PM): ok..? preppysux (3:12:09 PM): its a mix between skater-y cut and emo-y cut...the colour's not right for emo preppysux (3:12:13 PM): its ugly chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:12:17 PM): im sorry preppysux (3:12:20 PM): eh preppysux (3:12:23 PM): i like it ugly chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:12:28 PM): ok well that is good preppysux (3:12:49 PM): it makes my family (indirect family) stare and give me weird looks and whisper as i leave the room chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:13:01 PM): oh. im sorry preppysux (3:13:06 PM): no its good chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:13:11 PM): oh. ok. chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:13:19 PM): i dont always understand preppysux (3:13:22 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:13:34 PM): im just sort of dumb lately preppysux (3:13:34 PM): i like to make my indirect family think im a freak chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:13:52 PM): my inderect family scares me. i dont think its possible to scare the majority of them..... preppysux (3:13:57 PM): oh chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:14:22 PM): i want to go to best buy preppysux (3:14:45 PM): why preppysux (3:14:55 PM): i spend too much money at stores like that chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:15:15 PM): because i want to spend it there chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:15:50 PM): i have limited amount of money. only $30ish. but i want to see if they have pretty hate machine and i want the other hawthorne heights cd thing... preppysux (3:15:53 PM): i mean what is there that you want preppysux (3:15:56 PM): o preppysux (3:15:57 PM): ok chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:16:10 PM): jsut about everything else i want... ihave... it is sad preppysux (3:16:21 PM): o chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:16:45 PM): going to ask my mom if she'll take me. preppysux (3:16:53 PM): ok preppysux (3:17:00 PM): i want a yellow bandanna chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:17:04 PM): sorry. im muttery chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:17:06 PM): hwy yellow? preppysux (3:17:12 PM): bcoz its bright preppysux (3:17:20 PM): and not likely to get me shot chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:17:26 PM): ah. good plan there preppysux (3:17:45 PM): jackie made me a pillow to cheer up my summer preppysux (3:17:49 PM): its my little pony chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:17:53 PM): yeah. you told me. preppysux (3:17:58 PM): oh preppysux (3:17:59 PM): sry chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:18:03 PM): its ok preppysux (3:18:07 PM): gfd chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:18:10 PM): what preppysux (3:18:24 PM): this site im on looking at clothes is SLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOW chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:18:32 PM): oh. im sorry preppysux (3:18:48 PM): www.goodgoth.com preppysux (3:19:38 PM): slow motha chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:19:46 PM): im sorry preppysux (3:19:51 PM): ha it worked preppysux (3:20:50 PM): after a few swear words chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:20:54 PM): what? i want the leopard shoes preppysux (3:21:21 PM): ok chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:21:28 PM): sru preppysux (3:22:36 PM): sigh chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:22:42 PM): wha preppysux (3:23:04 PM): bored chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:23:09 PM): oh chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:23:11 PM): ims orry chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:24:42 PM): sorry preppysux (3:24:44 PM): i've got nothing to gain to lose, all the world i've seen before me passing by. chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:24:45 PM): phone. preppysux (3:24:48 PM): ok chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:24:59 PM): jordan got off about 5 minutes before you got on preppysux (3:25:24 PM): ok preppysux (3:25:27 PM): did u talkt o him chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:25:37 PM): no. i never do. chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:25:53 PM): im pretty much just as paranoid about him blocking me as you are... and i dont know what to say to him.. preppysux (3:26:02 PM): oh chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:26:14 PM): yeah... preppysux (3:27:03 PM): i talked to him esterday chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:27:08 PM): i kno preppysux (3:27:11 PM): he was pretty nice chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:27:18 PM): i know chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:27:47 PM): bout the swimming thing and stuff preppysux (3:28:15 PM): huh? chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:28:26 PM): that he wouldnt swim till he was done w/ u chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:28:46 PM): sounded like hes different then last time preppysux (3:28:48 PM): oh preppysux (3:29:15 PM): yes preppysux (3:30:15 PM): niceR in some ways. chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:30:20 PM): oh preppysux (3:32:19 PM): in some ways anyways chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:32:33 PM): ok preppysux (3:33:04 PM): im so...blah chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:33:14 PM): no youre not preppysux (3:33:31 PM): no like feeling chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:33:37 PM): oh preppysux (3:34:41 PM): talking to him yesterday made me realize i really should discuss the "love" thing with paul chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:34:58 PM): oh chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:35:01 PM): why preppysux (3:35:10 PM): just bcoz chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:35:18 PM): oh.. ok preppysux (3:35:31 PM): and i dont wanna BREAK UP with him preppysux (3:35:44 PM): just tell him i think that we are on different "love" levels chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:35:51 PM): oh. mmhm preppysux (3:36:34 PM): if only it were that easy chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:36:46 PM): how easy preppysux (3:36:51 PM): nothing chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:37:00 PM): oh preppysux (3:37:51 PM): sry i suck chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:37:59 PM): its ok preppysux (3:40:59 PM): http://www.goodgoth.com/sed460.jpg chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:41:22 PM): cool. make my feet hurt preppysux (3:41:41 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:41:51 PM): well.... they do preppysux (3:42:05 PM): http://www.goodgoth.com/elec2033.jpg chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:42:34 PM): k now those i could prolly stand. i like the purple.... preppysux (3:43:05 PM): http://www.goodgoth.com/newshoes/jag03.jpg chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:43:32 PM): cool preppysux (3:43:46 PM): im bored so i look at shoes chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:43:58 PM): lol its ok. chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:44:05 PM): when im bored i... well ijust.. do.... preppysux (3:44:21 PM): ok preppysux (3:44:32 PM): i hungry chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:44:44 PM): im sorry. do you have food/ preppysux (3:44:58 PM): we're going to get food in a "little while" chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:45:06 PM): oh chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:45:10 PM): well thats good preppysux (3:45:24 PM): yea chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:46:03 PM): oh... mygod.... tony has taken apart the box fan. preppysux (3:46:18 PM): o preppysux (3:46:28 PM): flip him off preppysux (3:46:29 PM): jk chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:46:54 PM): it woudl do me no good anyway... chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:47:08 PM): i just hope he cleans it up by the time mom gets home. eek preppysux (3:47:17 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:47:42 PM): sometimes its funny... other times its kindof scary preppysux (3:47:55 PM): o preppysux (3:48:03 PM): im never giving him anything. no matter what preppysux (3:48:06 PM): he might ruin it chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:48:11 PM): i know preppysux (3:48:19 PM): unless its something that deserves to be ruined chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:48:23 PM): thats why i've taken to burning him cds and buying him presents at thedollar store preppysux (3:48:41 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:49:07 PM): my mom got him family guy on DVD for xmas, and he lost it. i found it with some kind of goop onit... and the other day i stepped on a cd that was UNDER THE LEG OF HIS CHAIR chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:49:25 PM): ugh. and he wonders why we dont buy him nice things preppysux (3:49:30 PM): lol preppysux (3:49:39 PM): i take care of my nice things chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:49:43 PM): so do i preppysux (3:49:52 PM): but its not expected of me as much i dont think chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:49:56 PM): he treats them like... Frisbees chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:50:07 PM): well its not expected of him anymore either. he just doesnt get nice things anymore. preppysux (3:50:55 PM): well no, like my indirect family... i always dress particualrly grungy for them... and dont do my hair nice or anything... i dont get nice things preppysux (3:51:09 PM): and i throw things chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:51:17 PM): oh. well that might be part of it... preppysux (3:52:01 PM): not nice things preppysux (3:52:04 PM): i just throw things preppysux (3:52:09 PM): that i kno wont break preppysux (3:52:15 PM): my parents give me nice things sometimes... chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:52:17 PM): ok... well if htey dont break. gosh preppysux (3:52:55 PM): but not clothes... coz i dont wear what they consider nice... nice to me is like... my PVC shirt and... well thats about it chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:53:23 PM): oh. lol. chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:53:31 PM): interesting how people see things differently preppysux (3:53:40 PM): lol preppysux (3:53:52 PM): nice tot hem is white and pink and stuff... preppysux (3:53:58 PM): and not tshirts eitehr chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:54:05 PM): that is odd to me preppysux (3:54:13 PM): but i get electronics chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:54:24 PM): thats nice preppysux (3:54:24 PM): coz they KNOW i love them and would never hurt them intentionally chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:54:29 PM): yeah preppysux (3:54:37 PM): yea preppysux (3:56:17 PM): ladeeda chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:56:33 PM): alot of my fam seems to think i am still.... 9 or 10 chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:56:48 PM): one good thing about liz. she reminds people that i am as old as her. preppysux (3:56:52 PM): oh preppysux (3:57:03 PM): how do they trewat u 9 or 10 chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:57:30 PM): they buy me cheesy disney movies and my grandma buys memarkers and light blue fleecy things.... its weird preppysux (3:57:40 PM): oh chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:57:44 PM): she felt bad when i went through the jc penneys catalog and showed her stuff i like preppysux (3:58:00 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:58:32 PM): it makes me feel bad too because if she doesnt know ive grown up i havent spent that much time w/ her... but i do think it is funny. because... grandmas do that preppysux (3:58:33 PM): atleast your family doesnt give you shoe boxes chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:58:40 PM): SHOE BOXES? preppysux (3:59:16 PM): my grandma when she lived with us... gave me a "decorative" shoe box...i keep my pictures in it... and i got a coin holder thign preppysux (3:59:33 PM): and the coin holder keeps money stuck in it preppysux (3:59:38 PM): it was cheap bendy metal chat_bac_gurl_16 (3:59:54 PM): oh. that is weird. i used to get presents IN wrapped shoe boxes.... but... never just a shoebox.... preppysux (4:00:05 PM): lol preppysux (4:00:18 PM): oh and for christmas when she lived with us i got socks preppysux (4:00:30 PM): see? preppysux (4:00:33 PM): you get useful things chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:00:37 PM): well thre was one time i got a bunch of knick knack things in an equal box chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:00:40 PM): yeah. socks are lovely preppysux (4:00:40 PM): the socks were decorated chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:00:52 PM): i get electronic hand games alot preppysux (4:00:57 PM): i like white socks mostly, not snoopy socks chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:01:09 PM): oh. preppysux (4:01:15 PM): but eh preppysux (4:01:30 PM): if my family hasnt realized yet that i havent grown up i will find "useful" things... chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:01:42 PM): oh chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:01:48 PM): lol......... preppysux (4:02:13 PM): im scared for this Xmas... my dads side has this HUGE christmas party, and everyone gets one gift... you draw names to see who you buy for... and lasat christmas they all were scared of me chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:02:25 PM): that is mean. ims orry chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:02:34 PM): is all your huge famliy lds? preppysux (4:02:43 PM): huh? preppysux (4:02:46 PM): oh preppysux (4:03:10 PM): uh... on my dads side i would have to say most likely, on my moms.. one. preppysux (4:03:17 PM): my uncle is part of the masonry chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:03:23 PM): oh preppysux (4:03:24 PM): so he is DEFINTELY NOT lds chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:03:39 PM): i get scared when we have to go spend time w/ erics family. preppysux (4:03:48 PM): ohj chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:03:49 PM): you look at them and you go, 'oh my god tehy're mormon" preppysux (4:04:54 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:05:15 PM): i mean, they had the freaking xmas party in the CHURCH one yaer preppysux (4:05:29 PM): o chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:05:44 PM): oh that was uncomfortable preppysux (4:05:57 PM): lol preppysux (4:06:14 PM): try not having your cousin or step cousin there to make you seem like youre not the only "wild" one preppysux (4:06:19 PM): they're guys chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:06:27 PM): oh. oy preppysux (4:06:38 PM): but they have piercings and dress cool kinda preppysux (4:06:43 PM): like last year chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:06:45 PM): that is good.. preppysux (4:06:58 PM): mike always talked to me... steven sometimes did... but they werent there last year chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:07:05 PM): oh. im soryr preppysux (4:07:09 PM): so i was like singled out as a freak preppysux (4:07:30 PM): eh chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:07:36 PM): oh preppysux (4:07:39 PM): hopefully this year i will be sick or something chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:08:04 PM): yeah. i can imagine chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:08:09 PM): i hate family functions. preppysux (4:08:16 PM): lol preppysux (4:08:30 PM): but i dont know who i got this yuear chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:08:34 PM): ones where it is the essential hutchings and me and my mom and tony and dads i dont mind, but anything more than that... is like AAAAAAAAAH preppysux (4:08:39 PM): my mom buys the things if its for little kids preppysux (4:08:52 PM): my older cousins, if i like them enough i pick what they get preppysux (4:09:14 PM): and i only like tyler mike and steven chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:09:26 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:09:32 PM): i guess its good taht your mom buys the stuff preppysux (4:09:54 PM): yea preppysux (4:10:06 PM): tyler is a sk8r now tho chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:10:10 PM): oh preppysux (4:10:45 PM): but... my dads side of the family is HUGE so im glad that its only the ones from his mom and not my great aunts and uncles and THEIR kids too... just my dads old "direct" family's families chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:11:08 PM): oh preppysux (4:11:16 PM): and i think that steven and mike are not in the "kids" category for drawing names... preppysux (4:11:25 PM): sadly i am... which means i will probably get something weird again chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:11:31 PM): oh... preppysux (4:11:43 PM): but last year i got matth and 10 dollars chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:11:55 PM): yeah. which is good preppysux (4:12:05 PM): t/g it was from my older cousin tony's kids preppysux (4:12:18 PM): tony was in the military. now he's a fire fighter... chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:12:28 PM): ij like it when people dont know what to get you and just give you money or food.... id prefer that over like an animated story from the old testament or something chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:12:35 PM): thats cool preppysux (4:12:46 PM): my unlce (tony's dad) is the chief of the grantsville fire fighter station chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:12:55 PM): cool preppysux (4:14:12 PM): my uncle jeffery, the masonry one, used to give me Klutz books, then stuff from museums, and then he gave me a diary,and last year i think food preppysux (4:14:28 PM): so he's cool chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:14:39 PM): yeah sounds like it preppysux (4:14:59 PM): but its like some of my family thinks that by buying things that are uber girlie will make me uber girlies chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:15:15 PM): oh. mean preppysux (4:15:21 PM): yea... preppysux (4:15:33 PM): my aunt and grandma for instance preppysux (4:15:39 PM): and my other grandma too chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:15:42 PM): who are also girls preppysux (4:15:47 PM): she gets me giftcards to girlie sotres preppysux (4:15:50 PM): stores** preppysux (4:16:03 PM): that i usually dont find anything at, but when i get the gift cards i go and atleast look chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:16:11 PM): yeah chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:16:20 PM): i hate wasting giftcards... preppysux (4:16:21 PM): yea...the guys know that im not girlie preppysux (4:16:24 PM): me too preppysux (4:17:08 PM): my mom has a hell of a time finding me clothes... bcoz i either dont like them, they fit weird or dont fit, or she doesnt like it preppysux (4:17:35 PM): last year she was going to get me money and giftcards... but she just got me things that werent clothes chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:17:50 PM): lol. that sort of happens with my mom too. if i ask for clothes she says "okay we'll buy them now but you dont get htem till xmas" chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:17:55 PM): oh preppysux (4:17:58 PM): lol preppysux (4:18:18 PM): my mom does that too... which is why i dont end up with clothes chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:18:22 PM): because she doesnt understand when i explain to her and she goes "WHY CANT YOUJSUT EXPLAIN THIS TO ME????" preppysux (4:19:13 PM): bcoz usually we disagree... so she just says "i'll come shopping alone": and then on the waqy out i see jewelry, and she's like "i thought we were coming to look at clothes you like ... "jewelry is clothes..." christmas comes and i get no jewelyr or clothes but i got iPod and cds and stuff preppysux (4:19:39 PM): so i was like "hoorah my old clothes can get worn in more!! and be grungier !!! just to piss off your family " chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:19:57 PM): lol preppysux (4:20:32 PM): but i think my parents are finally realizing that even if i /BUY the colored clothes, i dont wear them preppysux (4:20:47 PM): like the colored shirts chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:20:51 PM): lol tehy cant win preppysux (4:20:56 PM): g2g ttyl chat_bac_gurl_16 (4:21:13 PM): ok bye preppysux (10:01:02 PM): paul is being weird at me chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:01:07 PM): huH? preppysux (10:01:17 PM): he was weird chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:01:21 PM): oh. im sorry.. preppysux (10:02:27 PM): he caleed my cell...told me to call him back. so i did... he talked about how he was all hyper earlier then i said so waht did you do today and he said he went to jordans for a bit to hang out and talk and then he said :"now things feel off" then after a pause he says "whats been on your mind?" preppysux (10:02:38 PM): and he was weird it hink he'll break up with me chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:02:47 PM): oh. im sorry chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:03:43 PM): are you talking to jordan preppysux (10:04:01 PM): yea preppysux (10:04:01 PM): he says he didnt tell chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:04:09 PM): oh... preppysux (10:04:28 PM): he seems mad now. chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:04:34 PM): why preppysux (10:04:36 PM): FUCK I RUINED EVERYTHING chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:04:42 PM): what? chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:04:46 PM): how preppysux (10:05:08 PM): jordans mad chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:05:17 PM): why is jordan mad preppysux (10:05:42 PM): coz i wanted him to bring me something from paul preppysux (10:05:44 PM): and hes mad preppysux (10:05:53 PM): bcoz i asked if he told chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:06:00 PM): oh. chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:06:11 PM): is that what you ruined? preppysux (10:06:29 PM): and paukl preppysux (10:06:29 PM): paul preppysux (10:06:35 PM): he is weird and sad preppysux (10:06:41 PM): i hate myself chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:06:56 PM): dont preppysux (10:07:34 PM): when i try to help my friends, it works usually... if i try to help myself i fuck everything up for everyone chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:08:02 PM): im sorry...... chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:08:34 PM): i dont really want to contradict you but i dont think it always happens chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:09:05 PM): you dont need to blame yourself... preppysux (10:09:12 PM): i fucked up you and jordan chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:09:20 PM): how preppysux (10:09:43 PM): then ote chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:10:02 PM): thats not your fault. i wrote it. preppysux (10:10:32 PM): i asked you to. and then the cutting thing... i told jordan that i was telling and if he really cared he owuld too. then he told and broke up with you chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:11:10 PM): ... chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:11:41 PM): i dont know what to say... preppysux (10:12:09 PM): u dont have to say anything chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:12:45 PM): but its not YOUR fault that he actually broke up with me. he said we needed to talk... and then he didnt. it was just... gone. you didnt make him... preppysux (10:13:33 PM): i feel like i held a part chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:14:09 PM): you held no bigger part than either him or me. dont feel bad about that preppysux (10:14:58 PM): and then there was the thing where i started going out with paul the first time and jordan was upset preppysux (10:15:06 PM): and with stormy in 8th grade chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:15:22 PM): but you didnt do it on purpose to piss him off did you? preppysux (10:15:46 PM): i dono chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:16:46 PM): i know its hard not to regret things, but... thinking about them when other things are mest up only makes it worse. and you dont need it. preppysux (10:17:18 PM): i dont kno if he told or not... if he DID i dont k now why he wouold chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:18:09 PM): i know this is really mean to say about someone that i feel the way i do about, but if he really was upset about it, from recent things, he has said things on purpose just to make people hurt preppysux (10:18:30 PM): yea preppysux (10:18:40 PM): but why would he want to make PAUL hurt and me preppysux (10:18:45 PM): not just me, but paul too chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:19:15 PM): jealousy? his own hurt? i dont know. preppysux (10:19:35 PM): wat would he be jealous of chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:19:50 PM): you maybe chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:19:57 PM): the sheer fact of the relationship preppysux (10:20:16 PM): o preppysux (10:20:30 PM): jealous of me that i have paul? or jealous that paul has me? chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:20:51 PM): either way. maybe he wants to be needed or needs to need someone preppysux (10:21:30 PM): o chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:22:13 PM): i dont know though. there is a good chance that he didnt tell... that paul just feels off, that jordan has nothing to do with it.... im not sure preppysux (10:22:24 PM): yea thats wat it hink preppysux (10:22:40 PM): but also the fact that he brings it up right after mentioning being over there chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:22:53 PM): oh. yeah... preppysux (10:23:04 PM): and asking whats on my mind right after THAT chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:23:07 PM): another mean thing... jordan is a really good liar... chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:23:11 PM): yeah. that is weird preppysux (10:23:14 PM): yea chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:23:30 PM): is he still mad at you preppysux (10:23:39 PM): i dont kno chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:24:04 PM): oh preppysux (10:24:54 PM): hes not saying anything chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:25:19 PM): oh... im sorry preppysux (10:25:29 PM): eh chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:26:32 PM): hum. wish i could help... help more' preppysux (10:28:15 PM): no preppysux (10:28:20 PM): theres nothing to be cahnged preppysux (10:28:35 PM): have u been to Pibs Exchange? chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:28:37 PM): yeah... i guess. chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:28:41 PM): i havent. what is it preppysux (10:28:55 PM): i really awesome thrift store on highland drive preppysux (10:29:08 PM): i want to go chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:29:32 PM): oh. i have not been to a "good" thrift store in forever. let alone an "awesome" one... chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:29:35 PM): whats so fab about ti preppysux (10:29:41 PM): its a high end one preppysux (10:29:44 PM): punk rock chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:29:57 PM): ah. explains why you think its awesome lol preppysux (10:30:22 PM): yea preppysux (10:30:26 PM): no ud like it too chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:30:34 PM): i beleive you preppysux (10:30:45 PM): shoesies and shirtsies and pantsies and all sorts of kewl 2nd hand stuff chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:31:09 PM): lol. thrift stores tend to have those preppysux (10:31:16 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:31:52 PM): my mom works tomorrow. it made me sad. i wanted to go shopping. preppysux (10:32:17 PM): o preppysux (10:32:25 PM): maybe we could go somewhere together chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:32:34 PM): hm maybe chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:32:57 PM): like to like pibs like exchange like? chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:33:07 PM): jk preppysux (10:33:27 PM): its too far preppysux (10:33:31 PM): to walk or anything chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:33:44 PM): yeah. i dont know what busses go there anymore preppysux (10:33:50 PM): yea chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:34:05 PM): from my house, i know how to get to all the malls and the best buys pretty much preppysux (10:34:15 PM): o chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:34:16 PM): and raging waters. thats about it. chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:34:35 PM): cuz the 37 goes to trax preppysux (10:34:43 PM): o chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:35:00 PM): i got bored one day and read the schedule preppysux (10:35:22 PM): o chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:35:30 PM): anyway preppysux (10:35:36 PM): i wish matt could drive and that we were still friend preppysux (10:35:37 PM): s chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:35:50 PM): youre not friends? preppysux (10:35:59 PM): no preppysux (10:36:07 PM): we havent talked since... april chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:36:09 PM): oh. im sorry chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:36:12 PM): that sucks preppysux (10:36:16 PM): yea preppysux (10:36:27 PM): i loved him preppysux (10:36:30 PM): or atleast thought i did chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:36:58 PM): yeah. gosh... what WAS it about october??? chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:37:31 PM): so many ppl got together. mind reels preppysux (10:37:55 PM): i miss him os much preppysux (10:38:04 PM): and hes haunting my dreams chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:38:10 PM): im sorry. preppysux (10:38:15 PM): i think that maybe i should talk to him preppysux (10:38:25 PM): but im too... scared/sad/chicken/ashamed to chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:38:34 PM): yeah, but i understand preppysux (10:39:12 PM): how can i just tell him that hes ruining his life without him being all... mad or something preppysux (10:39:13 PM): i cant preppysux (10:39:21 PM): and the last thing i want is for him to hate me... chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:39:42 PM): im sorry. that is rotten preppysux (10:39:51 PM): yea chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:40:04 PM): why are guys so fricking complicated preppysux (10:40:10 PM): i dont know preppysux (10:40:14 PM): i hate them chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:40:24 PM): when tony gets to be our age i sould ask him what is wrong witht them preppysux (10:40:25 PM): maybe iw ill force myself to be a lesbain chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:40:48 PM): forced homosexuality. that sounds odd preppysux (10:41:48 PM): atleast grrls like to share emotions and thoughts chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:42:10 PM): yah. if only there was a guy that was like a girl that wasnt gay preppysux (10:42:57 PM): ya preppysux (10:43:08 PM): like when we thoguht kaleb was completely straight chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:43:16 PM): yeah. preppysux (10:43:49 PM): i miss 8th grade preppysux (10:43:52 PM): matt was part of that too preppysux (10:43:58 PM): chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:44:29 PM): oh. yeah... 8th grade to me seems like hte simplest of the middle school years.... chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:44:45 PM): maybe you should see if jackie will talk to him...? preppysux (10:45:08 PM): jackie doesnt talk to him now either... not since june chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:45:14 PM): oh chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:45:28 PM): sorry preppysux (10:45:35 PM): eh chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:45:54 PM): complicatedness preppysux (10:47:00 PM): yea chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:47:30 PM): i htink im with youonthe hating guys part in a way. preppysux (10:47:49 PM): yea preppysux (10:48:51 PM): they are weird chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:49:14 PM): different... impossible to decifer preppysux (10:49:47 PM): yea chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:49:59 PM): im getting braindead preppysux (10:50:17 PM): me too chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:50:37 PM): is he stillnot talking to you preppysux (10:50:48 PM): somewhat chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:51:05 PM): mm preppysux (10:52:13 PM): so sad chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:52:30 PM): because of paul and matth still preppysux (10:52:46 PM): i dono how i feel so much bout paul chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:53:00 PM): why chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:53:10 PM): sorry thats a wierd question...b ut preppysux (10:53:25 PM): i told u yesterday i didnt kno if i loved him chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:53:37 PM): oh. yeah chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:53:41 PM): diff levels of love preppysux (10:53:49 PM): yea preppysux (10:53:54 PM): im not in love with him preppysux (10:54:00 PM): but as a friend i love him preppysux (10:54:07 PM): thats what i told jordan preppysux (10:54:13 PM): and he says paul is deeply in love with me chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:54:20 PM): oh. preppysux (10:54:43 PM): bloody mess chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:55:10 PM): i agree. im sorry for you preppysux (10:55:30 PM): yea preppysux (10:56:02 PM): i will shop tomorrow for superficial happiness chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:56:20 PM): retail therapy always helps at least a little preppysux (10:56:34 PM): yea chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:56:59 PM): if it doesnt rain, i think i'll go swimming preppysux (10:57:03 PM): lkol preppysux (10:57:05 PM): lol* preppysux (10:57:44 PM): if it doesnt rain i wills hop preppysux (10:57:47 PM): shop* chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:58:03 PM): well if my moms not gonna be home till whenever she's getting home tomorrow i wont be able to go to best buy because she'll be like" you have to take tony" and i dont want to take him. because he is greedy and annoying chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:58:17 PM): and he breaks things preppysux (10:58:28 PM): oh preppysux (10:58:37 PM): make tony hang out with mitch chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:58:48 PM): lol. ive tried to get him to do that a few times. preppysux (10:59:00 PM): lol chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:59:13 PM): and he just looks at me and goes "I'M SUZZIE" ugh. waht is it with the gale boys and female alter egos...? preppysux (10:59:37 PM): ugh preppysux (10:59:44 PM): does his dad have one chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:59:48 PM): i dont know chat_bac_gurl_16 (10:59:52 PM): does his dad need one? preppysux (10:59:58 PM): i dono preppysux (11:00:11 PM): the tomato and bo smell comes to my mind chat_bac_gurl_16 (11:00:28 PM): lovely chat_bac_gurl_16 (11:00:44 PM): i think of his dad... i think of passion of the christ and embarrassment preppysux (11:00:52 PM): maybe i will see if i can do my hair for happiness chat_bac_gurl_16 (11:01:03 PM): that will make you happy? preppysux (11:48:09 PM): actually im gonna go to bed chat_bac_gurl_16 (11:48:12 PM): ok preppysux (11:48:16 PM): nightnight chat_bac_gurl_16 (11:48:17 PM): ttyl then chat_bac_gurl_16 (11:48:22 PM): goodnight.