Sarah wrote: anyway so hey. whats up? i know you might not get this for a while... but.... oh well... didyou dye your hair/do your thing w/ jordan? and, just because i am a little........i dunno.... hurt...? that you didnt tell me about any of the fwb thing...becuase i always only asked that you'd tell me... i feel a little nosy. And you told me if i have questions i could ask. and i AM sorry if they are rude... they are in my head and need to be asked. why DIDN'T you tell me? what do you DO with him?(and depending on your answer to this theres another question)have i been lied to? did you have an impact on what he said to me last week? are you ever going to let me read anything more? you do still owe me. and i know there has to be is a/the reason you wont let me because if i did i would find something out that youdont want me to know? i'm sorry i am really pathetic. i hate myself for even caring about any of it at all. but i cant really control how anything in my head goes anymore... so until i can convince myself i know all i need/want to... i dont know how long i will be like this. apologies again. ArJay wrote: yes i dyed my hair. no i didnt do the thing to jordan. he was being butt-hurt. i didnt tell you because you didnt ask (i have a dont ask-dont tell mentality). now we do nothing because i told him i wanted to start over as just friends again, but we kissed. noy ou werent lied to, i didnt know whether or not i liked him for sure. no i dont think i did because i didnt tell him what to say or anything i just asked him to work things out with you. i am going to email him this weekend and if he emails me back you can read that. no thats not the reason, the reason is because he never emailed me back the lasat email i got from him is from yesterday that has a link to a music video that i havent watched yet so i dont know if he is implying things. you dont need to apologize because i didnt tell you, and so i should apologize but i didnt really see the need to tell you. -arjay