Ughh today sucked. i had nobody to talk to. my dad got on my case about walking around for a fucking hour. all food tasted like shit. all emotions were icky. i did write that poem though... probably like... the best thing to come out of today. went to IHOP with my family. not really the part im sick of... but... eh. dinner with the five of us is always amusing/interesting. i found some icons. they are sort of gay, but cool too. i feel like a trend whore. or just... somre other kind of whore. i dont know. just... lame today. i want to go sleep. i keep thinking its monday. mom and the funeral fucked up my days. if i werent here or keeping a journal, i'd totaly forget what day it even is. robyn emailed me a couple times... but nobody else ahs been on. i think jordan blocked me but i think i don't care. not sure. but i think i dont. i am just very angry today. at everyone and everything. i want to shatter glass and set off fireworks. and then go sleep and cry and write some more. i really should email him. hm. oh well i dont think i will. surprisingly enough, things fromher werent removed today. just read and sort of... ignored. hm. i think he's on right now too. ugh the people on the news fucking annoy me. they sound to me like they are being all high and mighty just because they know the news and i dont. you konw, if i wanted to know the news, i'd know the FUCKING news. i am, however fucking sick of my fucking mom and brother. i wish she'd just go meet this fucker ron and get it over wiht. im so sick of hearing about it. i actually might get to go to warped next week. i am excited. she knows that joan would go w/ me. eric offered but i dont think he'd really enjoy it. mom even said she'd go just to see billy idol. well i'm taking my phone and going to see hahe, mcr andall the other things i want to see. fuck billy idol. so not interested. i want gerard and jt and matt. yeah. ya'll can have billy. since i'm obviously not going to arkansas, i think it only fair that i go to warped. hm.. i'll check who's gonna be at the smash too. anyway. i shoudl stop before i start gushing