but yeah what else is new? We held hands on the last night on earth. Our mouths filled with dust, we kissed in the fields and under trees, screaming like dogs and bleeding dark in the leaves. It was empty on the edge of town but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease. In our cancer of passion you said, "Death is a midnight runner." The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that we wore like an antique wedding dress. The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn as the ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. The few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of a maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me on a quick fall, but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two. I rode alone. You said, "The cinders are falling like snow." There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savegry and eloquence. Of blue and grey. Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon and darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward, somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message. ************************************************************************ i'm pretty sure those are the lyrics to but home is nowhere... i think... **************************************************************** preppysux (5:25:37 PM): i have 11minuttes chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:25:40 PM): ok. preppysux (5:25:44 PM): hurry up chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:25:49 PM): ok... chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:25:56 PM): part of your email didnt make sense... preppysux (5:26:14 PM): the one i jsut sent? chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:26:16 PM): yeah chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:26:30 PM): oh... wait never mind i just reread it for the fifth time.. now i get it. preppysux (5:26:42 PM): ok chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:26:50 PM): im sorry... preppysux (5:27:00 PM): anyways if you want info you have to share info preppysux (5:27:08 PM): because i dont like wasting my time. chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:27:30 PM): ok. i dont have much to tell you that i can think of myself to share... so... preppysux (5:27:35 PM): ok chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:27:56 PM): i'm not sure what i want to know anyway... if i really want to know preppysux (5:28:01 PM): ok w/e chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:28:41 PM): well it sounds worse now... so i don't know if i really want/am wanted to be involved. preppysux (5:29:11 PM): i dont understand. anyways the thing for props on tagged are not for messaging. they are for compliments that people can add to their page chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:29:33 PM): ok.... preppysux (5:29:42 PM): how does it sound worse chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:30:24 PM): the wasting time thing and the part about not wanting to hear about jordan, not sure i guess... preppysux (5:30:43 PM): wasting internet time chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:31:01 PM): oh ok chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:31:04 PM): i understand preppysux (5:31:23 PM): he wont write back to me.. maybe i will snaeak n call him later and tell him to check it. then hang up chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:31:55 PM): email wise? i'm sorry... chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:32:06 PM): i'd do it but my phone is dead. and i'm not at home preppysux (5:32:22 PM): yes email. because he asked what was wrong... on AIM too, but then signed off right after he asked chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:32:31 PM): that's stupid. chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:32:33 PM): (him) preppysux (5:32:34 PM): when will u be home chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:32:42 PM): i don't know. around seven prolly preppysux (5:32:50 PM): o could u call him then preppysux (5:33:10 PM): ??????????????????? chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:33:13 PM): yeah preppysux (5:33:14 PM): i have 3 minutes chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:33:16 PM): i might chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:33:17 PM): ok preppysux (5:33:25 PM): w/e preppysux (5:33:40 PM): i cannot use phone. i am denied direct contactwith anyone chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:33:47 PM): oh... that is crappy preppysux (5:33:54 PM): yes i know preppysux (5:34:02 PM): they make it worswe too chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:34:07 PM): how..? preppysux (5:34:27 PM): insults, hiding me away chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:35:00 PM): i'm sorry. i really am i dont know what other consolation can be given on my part... preppysux (5:35:10 PM): yes but still chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:35:17 PM): yeah preppysux (5:35:39 PM): if they werent so nosy, so... themselves... and didnt keep me away fromt he world, the healing (phys. and emo) would go faster preppysux (5:35:50 PM): 1 minute chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:35:52 PM): i know... it doesn't make sense preppysux (5:35:59 PM): yep chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:36:04 PM): to me or you anyway but it must to them i guess. preppysux (5:36:50 PM): who knows... g2g... try to call him plz. tell him i am really upset, and to write in a note what the email says bcoz i dont know when i can get on next.... if u call him chat_bac_gurl_16 (5:36:59 PM): ok ttyt preppysux (5:37:05 PM): bye ******************************************************************* i pity her. i really truly honestly do. and it sucks. it makes me feel really bad. gah. why must i care about so many things? grr