So... Joel has written us notes... I had one of arjays last night... but i dont really remember what it said(because i read it and i "wasn't supposed" to) but so here's what i do have. hm. maybe i should put ar's note from fifth yesterday. lemme just say i hate crt schedule Sarah will you convince arjay that i am the best boyfriend she will have? jordan treats you both so badly and you will talk to him in the halls, yet you won't talk to me? i know she loves me. She's just cared to say it because she's afraid of what jordan would do. but i KNOW that's how she feels, even if she doesn't say it. Think of it this way... you can have Jordan and I can have ArJay and we will all be happy! And we can double date and stuff. I KNOW you like Jordan. I KNOW!!! from- joel P.S. and dont LIE to ME! I KNOW you do. He threatens me and told me he doesn't care about you. How can you like THAT? Because I KNOW you do. ***************************************************************** Sarah I am so fucking angry. I swaw you all walking in the hall yesterday and she was fucking PETTING him. I thought I told you to tell her I'm better. I guess you didn't. YOu all better watch your backs. I MEAN it. Watch yourselves. you betrayed me. ArJay too. You should be pissed too. At her. Jordan is yours. I say so. ArJay is mine. We were made for eachother. Nobody else will ever mean as much as her. You understand don't you? I'd think you would. Even with that afroman jackass. Do what I told you. she NEEDS ME! I am her backbone. I know-why am I telling you this? Because I thought you'd understand. You should. Even though I am mad at her, show this to her. It might help her. I'm afraid to tell her waht I think of her right now. I don't know what I'd do... something... BAD. DO IT. For me? Remember what I said about usa ll being happy? It can still work. It WILL still work. God help me... I will do wahtever it takes to have her as my own. Even if it means that you won't be able to have jordan. Help me. Joel Fuck it i will write ArJay a note. ********************************************************** JOEL! I do like you in an unexplainable way, just... let me do my thing. you don't always have to "lurk" and watch me w/ my friends at school. You can talk to them... About that one thing after third... I don't know if it should have happened or not. It was nice and all but sort of weird...yeah. I twas better than other times w/ other people but still... weird. I just don't want to screw up and lose anyone important to me this time. Just give me time because maybe jordan DOES care about things (even if he claims he doesn't he still might.) ********************************************************** ^^^that one she left in my notebook after she stole it to write joel a note. when she got to the "Might" she scribbled I HATE CURSIVE and exed out the note. so... i showed it to jordan... because i saw them doing something outside after 3rd... so yeah...