today's been rather lame. i went to dads house w/ tony because yesterday eric said "come tomorrow and we'll actually do something" well we did. we went out into their big old brown barn looking shed and moved all the crap out of there into the shed(trailer) that dad bought in january for more storage. it was pretty cool though got to see some freaking old things. eric read us stuff from his journal. last time he wrote was july 4, 2000 when dad came out to grandpa. weird. too many ppl die in july. i hate it. showed us a picture of this laundromat where he and dad first kissed. interesting. in a laundromat. hmmm. but we cleaned that out and saw old pictures of dad and his side of the family. oh my god my brother looks just like he did in 5th grade. it fucking scares. me. went to the store. got fuckloads of chocolate. mom got booze again. i want it. got alot of fireworks too. looking forward to satisfying my pyromania. hooray. i found some really retarded pictures of me from school. i look so ugly in one compared to arjay. got food and came home. i am and am not looking forward tomorrow. plus side of independence day: FIRE yep pretty much it. they are yelling at me now to get off so we can set mighty things afire. as much as i dont want to, i must satisfy my need for something destructive. i am definitely lighting.