haha i knew the title'd get ya'lls attention. but really... i had one today... with of all people...arjay. it was really funny. we got on the subject of them... as usual. we had some stupid assembly this morning and she sat behind jordan and flirted with/harrassed him the whole time, so i wrote her a note asking her what was up and stuff. so then... i can't remember if it was in second or fourth... well... i can't remember other stuff if i dont go into the first thing. after second we were walking with paul and this other kid and barret and arjay goes to paul "i know jordan's not a fag. as a girl... i know he's not." then at the same time we looked at eachother and sort of shuddered. OH NO! the other part was during lunch. but i still don't remember when we first started talking about it... oh well. but i do think it was in fourth but i can't completely remember. but arjay when we were talking about... well jordan... "i'm pretty sure a few times he wanted to have sex with me. i mean once he was telling me to do somethign and i dint wanna so i went 'what are you going to do if i dont?' and he goes 'rape you. just kidding' ew." and like she was talking after second about how she knew he wasn't a fag... well of course i am still paranoid about them having sex w/ eachother thing... but i am beginning to believe it didnt happen. still probably should ask him, but i'm scared of what he'd say. then at the end of fourth, i went over to her and i asked "how do you know that he wanted to?" and she gets this oh so DUH look on her face and goes "well, he is a guy, and he is jordan." which made me laugh. because i read in teen ppl last year or something that guys have sex on the brain always. and... in a way i envy them. it's easier for them to ...well... you know... for them the next best thing to sex... similar to masticate? i just hate the word. but yeah... um... where was i? so... after fourth arjay goes to him(because he got out of ramos' late because of dissections)"you know you're just like a zoo animal... you give them a piece of meat they love you forever but then if you dont give them what they want then they hate you." then she looked at me and giggled evilly then when he turned and went away, she yelled "JORDAN YOU'RE AN ARMADILLO!!!!!!" oh in fourth we went to ramos' room to get an embarrassing moment from her for out column and as we went past kinikini's room, arjay starts waving at paul and then to this kid dylan she goes "tell paul jllb(jordan loves little boys originally jesus loves little boys/jesus loves little jordans)" ::which is hilarious at the moment because eminem's just lose it is now on my player:: then we went in and as we left she goes "jllb" to jordan and then says "i love you stormy. i love you vanessa. i love you jess." and jordan gave her this totally evil/hilarious look and gave me a oh hello half-smile look. but so yeah at lunch it was funny because in fifth i asked her what the zoo thing was all about (even though i knew it was about the sex thing i wanted to check) and she goes yeah the zoo thing was about the sex thing. and he KNEW! then she started laughing. then we were sitting there talking about jordan and other random things then sara says something about IT. and i go "jordan?" and jake goes JORDAN IS AN IT??? and arjay gets this horrified look and sara holds up three fingers and goes yep. he's an it. and arjay goes "I KNOW HE'S NOT AN IT." then she looks at me and goes "he made much more of an effort with you than with me." ME: huh? what effort? to keep that part of him away from you. he didn't try to do that with me. he just... poked me. ME: oh.. um yeah. there was the one time he was on me and i think that's why he moved to he side so that... it... was on his bed and not on me. THINK? ME: well... yeah... no real proof. like you reall need it, sarah. ME: there was the time when he was sitting on my lap too... then it got really warm and he got off. hahhahahahahahhaha seriously? omg. ME: iknow.. pathetic that i remember huh? not really. i just feel bad for you. i'd hate to remember it like you do ME: but it is sad that i do still.. in a way. yeah... i'm sorry. (that is parts of today's convo and part of a diff day's convo but i dont know which day or why they are mixed up in my head. maybe its from YIM) but yeah we talked about how we knew he wasnt an it... surprisingly enough, arjay never asked me if i thought he wanted me or if i wanted him like that. it was a little wierd to talk about it though. oh she wrote me anote in second too. not about sex though. and of course... i am a teenager, and boy or girl, with the kind of people i hang out with and the way my brain has worked since second grade, we are all curious. but for the note. Sarahjane i was harrassing him. he makes me feel like crap sometimes. like he will say one thing and at another and stuff, soi like to bug him because i can't hur people intentionally usually in the library i aske dhim if he lied ( i think; that's what he said in the gym because i forgot and asked him what i wrote) i don't think that's what i asked. i think i asked if he did love me or lied. Meh. I don't know. I"m all mixed up. Blah so yes.. i will give you my $ later Anyways, if jordan makes you confused and paranoid, tell him you like him and if he likes you back there is nothign to worry about. i hate steven with a passion and i hope that one night when he is out stoning with his friends, he either ODs or gets caught adn sent away forever w/b arjay so yeah... and i know i really should. and i told her that i would probably write it in his yearbook or something. definitely soon though. but yes my day was very interesting just the same. the assembly makes me feel fat, stupid and pathetic in the way of... well everything. stupid dance ppl got little ceasers and amanda put a napkin in her hair. grr to them. and this is really retarded but i can't remember what jordan said in dance that made me laugh and go GOSH at him like ND. and he goes "you going all napoleon on me?" and his hair was really really really really really really really really really really fluffy(prolly soft but i didnt feel) and i went back at him "OH JORDAN? WHO IS MORE LIKE NAPOLEON?????????" it was funny. i made him smile. see? it's shit like that that makes me see/feel things. but... yeah. drama was lame. i spent the time writing notes back and forth with arjay. choir... we worked on SSB and to music for tomorrow and next week. so frekaing easy. typed and talked to arjay and went and bugged ramos in fourth. read a little story on memory chips and wrote about importance of memories, lunch was... well lunch. ajray still owes me $2.50. we dissected little worms in sixth. ended up sitting in exact same spot as jordan and stormy. (arjay sat in jordan's seat as she does in regular seating chart) and we had fun cutting the little wormy open and looking at its insides, and talking about jordan as no surprise. i was glad we received no wisecracks from nils. caught him after sixth, he was weird. maybe he really is over arjay. i dont know. perhaps she could ask him herself, as she is not afraid to ask him much of anything... seventh was pretty lame. book work. hopefully arjay will go to west side story tomorrow so we wont have to go to geo and be bored and stuff. i do wish i could dissect the squid though. but it will be nice to miss two days of bio/geo. and one day of EVERYTHING. hahaaaaaaaa! yay drama day! oh yes... before seventh we were walking after jordan got in front of us and she goes to me "he's got curves like a woman! and i am a girl and i don't have curves like him. you two are equally curvy. damn" and then i yell at her as we get in and she sits down "AND HE SHAKES HIS BUTT IN DANCE CLASS!" and he goes duh he always does. and when we caught him after school (he walked close behind me until arjay noticed him) she looked at him when we got out and he was a bit in front of me she goes "see sarah? he always does. not just in dance class!" and he gave us very strange looks. but yes. went to honks got arjay her food and tasha some food and black eyeliner. and i got food now too. yippee!!! hope waht i got her is okay. well. yes. today was my sex talk day. besides to me, but not to other people... not to anyone else or from anyone else have i talked/heard so much about sex and stuff like that since last year in health. haha. well lets hope tomorrow turns out as good as today. HOPE HOPE PRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!