Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com! something has to happen to end my continual boredom. i have no friends in state that i'd like to hang out with. oh yeah because by the way i think i hate htem both. groovy for me. yesterday basically consisted of watching tv, sulking and eating. woo. played this freaky little game called judgement day against mom. it is like mancala, but it is on the DISH and it is the devil against god and you have litlte people to move that blink at you. i like to be the devil. i hate being god. ugh. we were origionally going to go to lagoon but it was "too hot" outside and tony got a fucking headache. then he went to take a nap then when he woke up, mom and i went to hollywood video to rent/buy stuff. rented bridget jones' diary, grease 2, miss congeniality, and... oh meet hte parents.we bought closer fat albert, independence day, the brady bunch movie, the lost horizon, white noise, finding neverland, and phantom of the opera. went to the store and bought all kinds of sit around the house and eat freely shit. pepperoni and icecream bars and stuff. made the mistake of wanting to watch meet the parents. our dvd player went shit on us and it wouldnt play or open. so then mom got really really pissed at tony because she didnt have tools, and he wouldnt talk to her and treated her like shit and she hit him. it scared the shit out of me but i wanted to see her do it more. evil, i know. i freaked out and tried not to laugh or cry and then when tony went into his room all pissy she apologized to me. then we got tonys dvd player and finished the fucking movie. i like meet hte fockers better. mom wanted to watch another one, so i watched mc2 w/ her. i have had...very few detectable emotions lately. hate, pity, confusion, tiredness, and headached... ness... i feel like i can't write anything decent anymore... i hate it. i dont even feel like myself at all. in a wierd, but not quite total way.... empty. there's too much in my head to even begin to sort out. i feel good. i NEED to go to warped tour on saturday. i actually really really want to go to arkansas. i know it will drive me crazy if i do but at this moment i need to gt away from it/them. and my brother needs to find a fucking shirt. eeeeeeeew. OH YEAH yesterday i got AP and there is a sexxxy picture of gerard in it with his short hair (sexxxy feels wrong bcuz she uses it, but it was mine to beginwith, so fuck you.) his hand is blurred and his face is sort of dark butyou can stll see... and man... and i am fucking KEEPING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dont care if you lov ehim arjay. this time, he's mine.