....Happy Birthday to me.... ... Happy Birthday to me... ... Happy birthday you loser... ... Happy birthday to me... Eh... today was okay. went to rage again. We got rained on...but in a way it was nice. Sometimes today I wish I had drowned or something. I wrapped myself up in soaking wet towels and sat and thought meaningless shit for almost an hour while my mom finally got int he water. I listened to the thunder. I wanted to cry.. but nothing would come. I wanted to go home. But I just shut up and waited for it all to either subside or for everyone to give up on it and leave. But they never did. we sat in in the pouring rain. As I sat there curled up in my towels and freezing... I thought it woudl be funny if someone took a picture of me all huddled like that... then when I got it developed... I'd put it on a piece of paper and write "Happy Birthday" under it. But... then a lifeguard finally came and told us they were closing... so we walked out in ankle deep murky water and got RAINchecks.... (haha?) came home and dried off. looked at... things... i'm pissed. Well... oh well.. what can you expect from "friends" on your birthday...? Eh... cleaned up a bit and mom and tony went to the store for more hotdogs. they got back.. then dad got here... then the hutchings came... (No joan n juju TG) then eric came. mom cooked the hotdogs and we all sat outside and ate while eric strummed his guitar for us because we are so special. then they made me open my "presents"... dad and eric gave me a $50.00 spree and a really cool card... haha.... ahma gave me... um... a candle... a black tank top... some weird wite thing... a greenday shirt... pens that said SARAH on them, and a happy bunny bag thing i think. well.... now let's continue the "list" OMFG tehy spent too much money. MOM: napoleon dynamite, cry baby, bridget jones' diary, cd case, pens that said SARAH on them(yes exactly like ahmas) a notepad, and um... what else??? OH YEAH!!!!!!! TICKETS TO GREEN DAY ON 9/21! So... Yeah... that is pretty much the best present. I'm glad I changed my mind about that. Still want to see MCR in october.. but that is okay. think im taking robyn. since I can't have Natasha here... it will be Robyn's birthday present too. But right now... things DO kinda suck. It pisses me off... but meh... I can't do anything to mend it.