I knew I should have gotten off, after I finished putting all my entry things... but NOOO arjay popped up and i just had to talk to her. i fucking forgot that jordan was on. so i'm being... talked to when it is convenient to her i think. all of a sudden it went from me being sort of sad and her liking jordan... to asking about tims bday. fuck it... i wish i'd gotten off. I could be in the living room pretending i know nothing... but nope. i'm here, making myself miserable... going to... cry... something i dont know... GODFUCKINGDAMNIT i hate these feelings and i dont fucking know how to make them go away.