the scab on my wrist is greenish. I should disinfect it. but I probably wont. My classmates grades depend on my actions this weekend... it's kind of sad... But At least its not a D- anymore. I guess thats good. Sara doesn't believe me that hte one on my right wrist isn't my fault. I think Jess believes me. I think ArJay does too. This kid Josh is hot. I love his eyeliner and his blue eyes. Sighs. The gas made me sick in Chemistry and I burnt myself a couple times. I held the match until it burnt to my fingertips. Being burned feels strange to me. Like the fire is so hot that it's cold on my skin. I don't know how that works but yeah. I am keeping the exact same secret for two diffrent people. It sucks. because it's a sexual secret and I am over here all pouty and alone. Mehehe. ArJay wanted me to go to WL w/ her beforeshe went to work. wantedme to hang out with those gd "reformed" stoners that paul hangs with. I don't fucking buy it. Earlier she said "I'd invite you but you'd probably feel or get left out" Yeah, I probably would " i mean not out of the group but I know you can't run and we run around and stuff." Oh god if Daniel turns into the next terry or the next paul or the next jordan, I will slit her wrists myself... Not seriously... but yeah. and then I'm late to the bus and she whines at me "come to west lake with me" "pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeease" i dont like them "Why?" they're fuckin- "see ya" and hten she left. She is so confusing... worse than guys sometimes... meh. I want to eat. I want to go to virgin and b&n tomorrow.. I crave hedwig and other things to read or listen to. I want to go to best buy too but eh I think i'm fucked as far as that's concerned. I HAVE to go to dad's this weekend tho to email the goddamned powerpoint to Biggar so cara and katie and shanice dont start a bitch fight in the middle of english on wednesday. Want to write but I can find no inspiration. I wrote a really short lameass story thing last night but eh oh well. i sort of figure, fuck it all you know? Tomorrow, be that as it may only 3 weeks after xmas, i hope will be a money spending day. Even if it is only the $25 that I posess in gift card form. Sigh. I must call the megastore and put things on hold now.