santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight... last night was odd... but good... I took my shower after they fought with eachother... Took a pain pill even though I don't need them at all anymore, and went into my room and watched Jackass. For like an hour, I wrote in my journal and I wrote maybe 5 or 6 poems... and I almost like them too... I dunno. I then went through and read alot of the ones that I've written since march. I have almost a whole fucking year of shitty poetry in that messed up little diary. I would almost rather get this out in words that burn and sting than with that thing that leaves an uglier mark than my ink on paper. Except theres no blood... Tony's litlte school program was cute. Dad and Eric and Shane and Sherry showed up. It was nice. The kindergarteners are so cute. I miss elementary school. I never would have thought half of the things I think right now when I was little like that. I get to go to grandma's tonight. I look forward to teh food the fun and the chatting. After all, they were my christmas present too.