I COULD BE MEAN... I COULD BE ANGRY YOU KNOW.... I COULD BE JUST LIKE YOU Today was ok until the bus. As it usually is. Gym meh... I participated... Thelma gave me candy and I ran around outside trying to numb this screech on the inside. We dressed up like "geeks" greeks in world studies and did a tournament thing. we were corinth. we got 3rd place... aka 5 pts e/c. Worked my ass off in chemistry with that gay ass lab book and checked a book out for the outlines i still have to do. arjay and i wore our toga thingies out of fuller's class. mine popped off in chem so i just left it. I wrapped it around me and felt small and childish. it was a good feeling. I had 2 sodas today. talked to sara and jess during lunch. felt... semi wanted. jess seems more open to me than sara. I don't care about people much anymore. Well... I am trying not to. English was ok... had a quiz it was fun. ArJay fucking psycho. Ditched her, though I claimed not to. Got on bus, she sat behind jordan and then yelled at me when I asked if i could sit there (because i fucking hate the back of hte bus) so i went back and grumbled and went "i fucking hate it back here" and jess k gave me a weird look. slouched down in my seat... saW her get up and sit by him and hten put my head down and cranked three days grace. the kid behind me told me to turn it down, so reluctantly i did. got off the bus as fast as i could, unfortunately nota s quickly as jordan. but i walked fast. i was going to walk a bit further than normal because i hate walking home with sir fucked up in the head, but i was angry and just wanted to come home. i feel so angry homicidal suicidal i dont know she's on and talking ot me. isnt it horrible that th eonly person i have to talk to is the one person that pisses me off more than anyone else...? trent reznor's wonderful lyrics will cheer me up How old were you when you first had a man make love to you? Next who was he? Next how did you feel at the time? Next how did you feel afterward? What did you feel? What did you think? Were you pleased? Frightened? Ecstatic? Disgusted? What did he say? What words did you speak? That’s what I want to know. Now tell me now now all of it now tell me YES