so... today was okay, all in all. english boring. i still hate that class. chemistry was funny. not fun... funny lunch. I'm not sure how to explain. I thought I saw her looking at me when I looked at her a few times. But I tried not to. because it hurts. And I fucked up but yeah. I am out of chemistry with her, but I am now in computer tech with him. ugh. Not sure.. health was pretty fun. Sabrina thinks i'm gorgeous which was a little weird but... the class was cool anyway. turner is better than doutre. and the class is easier to understand because you don't have to write down every word that comes out of turner's mouth. So yeah. I realized that I forgot my keys toward the end of class. Amber says ArJay's been telling people I missed class because of her again. I don't know about that... And in retrospect, I guess it does have a bit to do with her. OH well. Its over. its done its past. but i don't know why i'm still holding onto it.....and now... well she pretty much hates me. or thinks i hate her. i'm not sure whether its either, or both. Anyway, i rode the bus listening to heroine. great fucking cd. keisha was sad because i wouldn't sit in the back of the bus with her. I laugh. Walked home in the rain. Richard was out talking to some guy and he said to me "raining raining raining. and more tomorrow" as he signed and i said "I know!" he said "youre learning sign? this year?" me: "yeah." "wow that's great." thank you. "you're welcome." funness. so... i dropped my backpack off under the carport where it was dry, pulled the chair over under my window, opened it, scared the shit out of my cat, took my hoody off, and jumped up and just kind of slid into my room. Why is it that I forget my keys whenever I end up really needing to pee when I get home? Hm. Karma? Irony? bad luck? they all seem to love me. meh. i have alot of thinking to do. teenscope tomorrow. isnt tony great for letting me on? and i saw him look for the password so now i know what it is ahhahahahahahhahahahahahha shhh. people were weird today. things are really diffrent. some are good... but a couple are bad. and i miss her in all honesty. but i don't want to be the one to break the ice again. besides, she's in a relationship. ... i am going to eat some rice krispies and go in my room and listen to music and light insence. read maybe. i'm hungry.