I sleep too much... I can't think... My knee says "hell" on it, and... irony, it stings like hell. School resumes tomorrow... Let me say I am so not looking forward to it. Granted I have been a fucking recluse for the last... 10 days, and I know I need human contact, but it's just always hard to go back after such a long period of absence... ::thinks of grade seven:: I thought about everything she said and everything going on in my head for a long time last night... I called her and waited. This morning I thought more, got online and talked to her. She talked alot about Chambray and that whole disaster, waiting for her mother to leave so she could tell me something, we sat in her room listening to the screaming emo music while she ripped her pants and sewed them together. Talked about Chambray and how angry/hurt we were by her, about Chad and Brett. Chuck came over too We dressed in goth-y emo-y poser clothes and did makeup. Jackie was being a stick in the mud... and wouldn't do her makeup or hair so she got all pissed and stromed off cuz we wanted to make her have fun. She left us in peace and we resumed our poser picture ness. Our pictures turned out really cool from the arbor outside. it was cold but we took them and they were pretty. Took mildly compromising pictures of us in the chair and then pretty ones in the bathroom that are gorgeous... I love them.. We talked more about Chambray.......... howa ngry we are... at Chuck too for ArJay I guess...... And... about the possibility of my sexual orientation being different than what i've thought all this time. Not completely there... but half... I guess it doesn't make much sense... but to me it does.... And I can't wait till next week when she sleeps over and we go to Mt. Calvary Catholic Cemetery to take pictures of us draped over tombstones Morbidly beautiful... That is my new description of life and of myself I guess.... for now... while Iam positive at the moment, euphoric and having my mind off of most of this... trying to stay that way as long as I can. I have to go to school.. need to sleep... Not going to happen for probably 2 hours or something... I don't know right now. I want to get the rest of htese pictures... and maybe I will put them up here. I don't know