meh.... i haven't heard from like... anyone all day long. I guess it's good. If I had talked to people, I'd probably be more panicky than I am right now. She's going to tell him about Joel though... I hope she hooked up with scott or skyler tonight at Morp. Actually... right now, I hope she dies. We got rid of John and Stripes and Nani(ferret) today... mommy cried. she felt so bad. I am sad too... I think they're going to die. Iris and Midnight were forced inside. Midnight was very angry. They both escaped when mom came in from having a cigarette. Boo you whores. BUT!!! ON A BETTER NOTE....! Today was Drew Carey and the Improv All Stars. oooh it was fabulous. Jeff Davis is hot, funny, and can sing. sigh... wow. Damn you chip you married asshole. Just like billie... and Ville, only he's not married yet. It was awesome. and it was a one of a kind show. Hehe... took trax. it was really sad because you can practically see Natasha's house from the window of the train car. Sob.... how I miss people ever so much. It was really cool though. Mummy wouldn't yell what she wanted to. "DREW I WANT TO HAVE YER BEBBES!" actually that's not what she wanted to say, and I don't blame her either. "Why is abbreviation such a long word?" "What do you call catholic vomit...? NUMCHUCKS!!!" Hm... for Jeopardy, who were the contestants....? Greg was host yes... Kathy was Julia Child, Then there was Stone Phillips, Rocky, The Jew, Napoleon Dynamite, and Keanu Reeves. Holy fucking shit, listening to Jeff talk, I kept expecting to look up at the monitor and actually see Keanu there. "what is really hard to get on the spit but tastes yummy yummy yummy barbecued?" "our halloween curse-less version of moustraps. oh what was that drew? 'FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!!!!'" It was a bit short, but it was great. Chip makes a good Napoleon. Took the train back to 21st south. sat and thought most of the way. I wish I could tell mom everythign that's been bothering me. Yet... unfortunately... sigh. I'm ashamed/afraid to. I want to go away right now. OH YEAH!!! I GOT THE COOLEST MOTHERFUCKING SHOES!!!! they are black and have a transluscent black floral pattern on the outside and then they have these elastic things...the look like ballet shoes, and I love them. Mummy says if I can find teh Vans that I have/want I can order them online. Hehe I have to find a picture of the ones i got. $45 shoes for $20 Ok I will shut up now. This morning... my head was flooded with thoughts of suicide and murder. I laid in the hall.. staring blankly at the white nothing ness of my ceiling.