so i got my own actual copy of yes, virginia. it is gooooood. but today was a bad day after about... oh 6:00. mom cleaned my room and it is all wonderful and beautiful, and we both remembered about the same time that ring said to us, sarah no go home. FUCKING A. Went to training table. silent. i cried. I WANT TO JUST GO HOME. why can't i have the only thing i want right now? why why why???? so we went home... i talked to mom. "she was livid." she said. she sat in her chair doing nothing. i made her angry. tehn she got angry when i couldnt find markers. oh well. she found them. she calmed down. i cried some more because they yelled. i hate it. they all think i'm doing so well. i'm sooooo not. oh well. i get to do primal screams in a minute. well.. that's about all i feel like or have time for writing today.