Wish I was too dead to cry My self-affliction fades Stones to throw at my creator Masochists to which I cater You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds Wish I was too dead to care If indeed I cared at all Never had a voice to protest So you fed me shit to digest I wish I had a reason; my flaws are open season For this, I gave up trying One good turn deserves my dying You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds [Solo: Corey] Wish I'd died instead of lived A zombie hides my face Shell forgotten with its memories Diaries left with cryptic entries And you don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on, I won't let go 'til it bleeds You don't need to bother; I don't need to be I'll keep slipping farther But once I hold on: I'll never live down my deceit ****** that is my new song. i love it.. it is... me. i've done alot lately. Kyle kept talking to me....t rying to ge tme to tell her that i love her.. I don't know. I panicked alot.... i'm afraid still. I think i made a huge mistake. i'm glad i didn't say it today. i don't know if i can or am going to. I conquered the thing i was afraid of. i can push them in now. i can feel how deep it goes. it hurts for a second.. then stops. then bleeds. my blood is different colors you know? it's strange. the one i did a few minutes ago... that one, when you press on it, is hard. i think i hit the vein. ahahahahahaha I'm hallucinating. I don't know why. It has to be her. I don't know why.... but.. well I do. but That's not important right now. Eat the icecrea fatass drown your pain in food and blood. it's what i do now. Happy motherfucking birthday tony. Sorry I'm going to fuck it up.