... happy valentines day I guess. I'd written her a note before she gave me that. I didn't give it to her. That jsut...... it made me so incredibly happy, but at the same time, it made me stumble a bit. we're still just.... barely talking. i think i responded wrong... "...why? Happy valentine's day. that was a .... pleasant surprise." just as I'd sort of planned to do. If there hadn't been a million people around us at that point, i probably would have hugged her.. or kissed her. I don't know. she brought her work clothes.... Stupid me, i thought i might walk with her..... when she came back i wrote on my phone "i guess a better question is, where do we go from here?" and her reply to that was "i dont know... because i'm waiting for someone today." and i have no idea who. if you're waiting on someone... why tell me you love me? why raise my hopes like that..? I guess... i don't know. better to know than to be left in the dark. as we walked out of the lunch room we were kind of near eachother. smiling and laughing at sara and talking and things.... she looked hot today... but now... and after school. she walked out behind me, didn't get on the bus, and was hanging around bobbie...... once i spotted her... she kept kind of looking at the bus... cynthia walked out the doors and arjay walked over to her. i have no idea what's going on. but she loves me.... i have a semivalentine... i got told i was loved on valentines day.. i should be happy... she loves me....... why do i feel as if i have been ripped down the middle?