I am getting my pictures developed this week... end. I am very excited about this. They are probably shaky and blurred, but they are from the Big Ass show and I can see my friend Matt any time I want. I am going to develop them to Cd as well as paper so that I can put them on here and I will have an entry, or several of them that is just full of happiness that comes seldom to me. It still feels like it was all a dream. Green Day, not so much. I had people there with me to confirm it and to cement it in my mind. With BAS, I was alone for the most part, despite how many other people were around with me, and that I saw people that I know and all that. The ringing in my eardrums served as proof the first day after each show. But now, it seems faded, and I want it to come back. When I get my pictures done I will plaster them to my walls and sit and stare at them all day, reminding myself of how happy I can be whilst I am alone. I do not need the company of human beings to enjoy myself. I will fall into the memories and lose myself. I hope.