well... aside from doing that mean thing that i always do.... this is what goes on. take yesterday for example: woke up... went oh god lets see how today will suck. ate remnants of a rock hard donut on my desk got on the computer putzed around until i was bored got off... found something around to eat watched murder by numbers and oggled the guy that plays sam and justin. har har har. came back out around 2 to see if anyone was on. nobody was... listened to some music in my room and wrote a magenta comment in my non sitdiary journal about grinding and surveys. oh shit still need to do taht. around 3...3:30 i got back online... arjay was on but i didn't really want to talk to her so then she asks me if i was mad at her or something. i lied to her and said my messenger window doesnt pop up when i log on so i didn't know who's on. which is bullshit, but good, and not even unfair bullshit. talked to her and natasha... asked natasha why she wasnt home yet. gah school starts on monday fuck. fantasized about more wicked things and shopping this weekend... got off for a bit when mom got home. then got back on and went to runescape because arjay was talking about it and i was bored and i want to knowwhat jordan's s/n is so that i can annoy him. HA! she was waiting for im to change worlds to give her crap after she died because too many windows popped up...bite me i laugh at you and your dying. then mom decided i had to go to the store with her. hm... what to do suddenly about icky little scabs on wrist that would surely freak her out and send her ------------> figured that if i kept my arms folded or something she wouldng see.. so we got gas and she turned the phone off at a good song that il ike and have not heard fora while... i think...? people that drivein harmons parking lot are total retards. jeez. but we went in and bought all kinds of lovely things. i found a package of wonderful jack links pepperoni beef sticks for cheap. hooray for me!!!!! got pepsi and litlte pizzas and ice cream too... and other things but those arent particularly important. tony pissed mom off and she was in a bad mood and took it out on me as we were leaving... i really hate it when she does that. it makes me want to pick the scabs off and smear blood in her face sometimes. i really don't like it just that much. but we got home... ate... i watched one hour photo and fell asleep... had quite weird dreams. one involved whores and cute but sort of homely guys and a digusting bath that some lady put whores in when she caught them... with tar and garbage and really icky things. the other had to have been some sort of fantasy wish for graduation crap and somebody's birthday....i remember riding a bike on a walla nd falling off and being mad to ride through the mud some more. then we were walking on rollercoasters or something... riding bikes or something... i think i was w/ my cousin... then there were GT people there dressed up in grey suits with green ties. then tim was talking really weird to me... i dont know what else happened... but i am mad becasue i slept through 1 1/2 hours of my alarm clock blaring at me. grrr.. oh well i will just take some sleeping pills tonight and i will get up early. fuck the world he hasnt checked his mail since sometime yesterday afternoon. i get something new now... she goes to me " i think paul blocked me becasue we havent been uh... getting along" and then in the email "if paul hadn't come up do you think it would have been more than grinding?" and if i am thinking correctly about that word... if paul came up and saw, oh... considering the fact that this is only two days after the girl broke his heart... i think he'd have quite a reason to not want to talk to you. whore...