more like fucking pissed. i was right in my theory. Mood : sad Music : Nymphetamine Fix- Cradle of Filth jordan and i are talking again and we are friends again.... not gonna say much else about that though... and i broke up with my old boyfriend (thank god), but didnt tell him i cheated on him (thank god). but he tells jordan that he is going to do whatever it takes to get ONE LAST CHANCE with me... can we say "vomit"? i think i can say it until i pass out. my lover's dad (the one i cheated on the boyfriend with) thinks its funny that i gave his son hickies. he acts really nice about me to his son and his son tells me about it. but when i was talking to his dad the other day while his son was out of the room, he was kind of...different towards me compared to when my lover is with me. he said stuff to me like "you seem loose" and "if your parents dont trust you, then maybe i can't either" and i told him they dont trust me because they think i have sex a lot. he said "do you?" and i said no... it was just really weird how he's all nice and easy going about it with his son, but then he blames ME for what his son and i do. its not just me ok? this guy i know, well he says he is depressed.. and i really like him a lot, but he is starting to make me worry about him. i just wish i could help him to feel better, but i have no clue how... it makes me sad knowing that he is sad, and having to know all that he goes through without being able to make things better. To understand this you have to read this bottom thing and then... if i unprivate it... the "maybe i should just..." i will hopefully probably be able to come friday afternoon!!!HOORAH IM CONVO: chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:08:50 PM): meh w/e preppysux (9:08:55 PM): ur my friend preppysux (9:08:59 PM): they are.boys preppysux (9:09:06 PM): one a playthign the other terry chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:09:22 PM): a plaything???? chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:09:29 PM): who is a play thing? preppysux (9:09:47 PM): the guy i met from internet chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:09:53 PM): oh preppysux (9:10:05 PM): yea preppysux (9:10:09 PM): i met him chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:10:13 PM): i know preppysux (9:10:14 PM): and we made out chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:10:30 PM): i knwo preppysux (9:10:37 PM): yea preppysux (9:10:47 PM): plus i kinda wanna see jordan before school chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:10:56 PM): oh preppysux (9:11:08 PM): he said i could come this week chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:11:37 PM): ah preppysux (9:11:42 PM): pauls back preppysux (9:11:56 PM): have to see him/tell him chat_bac_gurl_16 (9:12:32 PM): yeah preppysux (9:17:48 PM): g2g and the motherfucking problem here is taht i think the guy that she met is jordan. and the even bigger problem is that i don't fucking want him at all anymore. i dont think i'd care if he fucking died. but i just want them to hate eachother. i dont want them to have anything to do with eachother. i hate it all. maybe i should just pretend that they are dead. better. oh my god im sick right now. she fucking cheated on her boyfriend, with his best FUCKING friend. which also explains the grinding and why paul is not happy w/ her. oh my fucking god