befuddled? hmmm... yea..today was an ok day... from like 12-4 Ashley nd I were tryingto find rides and make plans with Dan n Tony..i was getting pissed off @ ashleys mom..she kept making excuses for not giving rides. not cool.. Tony finally got his mom to give him n dan a ride over here and my mom was ganna give them a ride home around 10. Tony n Dan got here and we went to go look @ the window they broke the night b4 (read about that in last entry :P) then while we were over there, im just like mide as mell go get melissa while we are over here so we went n got melissa and went back to my house..we called ashley n she wouldnt come down @ first so it was like ummm ok? is this about dan..she claims its not but i dont really know. she eventually came down n we hung out here for a while n played PS2 while i had to smell dan n tonys arm pits :( We walked to the bazaar n i had some issues..i couldnt breath like @ all n i felt like i was ganna up chuck..ugh..fist of all it sso embaressing n i didnt wanna ruin anyones fun..n second of all..i get so scared but i dont wanna show cuz i dont wanna work anyone up. i was scared of seeing dustin there cuz he said he was ganna go nd i havnt been around tony n dustin @ the same time b4..ever in my life..so thats alittle nerve racking.but we didnt see him although he was there. we stayed @ the bazaar fer like 15mins-half hour then went home n got my in haler n a cig for melissa and walked to burger king. i wanted to have a smoke so bad but tony caught me right b4 i was ganna and pulled me away..i felt bad cuz i promised him i wouldnt smoke anymore n i almost did..:( im sorry tony..its really hard..but i still promise that i will NOT smoke. i love you @ burger king me n tony put on crowns n flowers on our heads and wore bibs :) haha we looked like boyfriend girlfriend twins:) then my dad picked as all up there and we road in the back of the truck and dan didnt feel good..so me n tony were in the corner makeing out while dan was in the middle with ashley n melissa laughing :) we got back to my house n tony n dan left after a big scene of kissing..i hate when he leaves :( so me melissa ashley n marcuz went tot he bazaar again..remind me never to have "pizza fritte" agian! ahhh it made me sick..then we walked back but stopped @ the church n chilled. i could have stayed there but it was kinda cold and i had to be home soon...melissa ended up spending the night n ashley "had" to go home..o well..it seems as though she never wants to spend the night..it wont hurt my feelings is she just tells me. but o well whatever. me n melissa are hanging around nd eating nd watching the stir of echos..good movie...im mad tierd though to im ganna fall asleep lol so im out..ill write more tomarrow. i love you so much Tony.. yOu gOttA tAkE sOmE cHaNcEs yOu gOttA [ r i s k ] it alL yOu gOttA clOsE yOur EyEs n jump' 'cAusE it migHt bE wOrtH tHa FaLL..*