yea i dont really feel like writing but i wanna get some shit out. so if its short i hope you still get the jist. me n my family got in a huge fight about this weekend n tony. it started out about what the plans were, but it turned out to be more than that. it was about my feelings towreds tony n the relationship that he had with my dad. I said like almost everything that i feel about tony n the way that he feels back towreds me. i cant believe that i said half that shit to my dad. i atccually told him i was inlove. it felt good to get it out n let everyone know that im inlove. im scared that tony thinks that its his fault n that my dad hates him. both of those are not true. my dad thinks that hes a good kid n treats me right. he just can get past the fact that hes older n he might lose his "little girl"..thats annyoing. well the plans ending up being after 3 hours of crying screamin n carrying on that Were ganna get tony tomarrow for the cottage n stay till sunday morning then go to the syracuse mall to go shopping for the day. alot of things are happening with my mom n dad n i feel like im making it worse. i feel so lost n confused. i think i might be too dependent on tony to make me feel better, but i honestly think hes the only one that can. well melissa n Ashley earned 5 bucks each from my mom doing some of my moms paper work shit for her. yea..i guess it kept them occupied while i was fighting with my mom n dad. there is so much more to this that i just dont feel like writing out. my head hurts along with my neck n eyes. it feels like im not even happy that i get to be with tony for the whole weekend just because my dad is mad that i got my way. i mean i should be happy that im with tony. ugh. there is way to much shit going on. hopefully this weekend will get my mind off some shit. my dads not ganna be there. tony will make it better. im so lost. i love you tony