this is ganna be a long entry just to let you know. i have lots to say :) its like 10 of 11 in the morning. it feels like the only time i can do my entrys in early because everyone else is doing it @ night n it wont let me on :( i havnt wrote in this for lik emore then a week. the first 2 days i ddint write becasue it wouldnt let me on! err n then the rest i was @ my cottage with my baby. That was my favorite 5 days in the world! i had the most fun ever. Tony n I went swimming everyday wether it was in the pool, hot tub or lake. We took like a million walks around the lake wether it was light or dark. we didnt care. Just being able to hold his hand or have his arm around me makes me feel..ugh idk. i just love it when we are together. on saturday..we stayed up like until like 4 er 430 :) everyone was sleeping so we stayed up n held eachother fer the longest time. We were telling eachother how much inlove wwe are with eachother n how were never ever ganna let go. he told me that i was the prettiest girl he has ever seen. he whispered it in my ear..i dont think that im the prettiest girl..i mean..not ugly..but tony thinks im the prettiest girl becasue hes inlove with me. :) i know he is though..he got tears in his eyes when i started telling him how i never felt this way about anyone n how inlove with him i am n im never letting go. i asked him why he had tears n hes like....cuz i have you n im so happy brittany.i love you. i was like..aww!! omg! that was soo cute. Tony is seriously the most sweetest, lovable, loving, cutest, funniest guy that i have everr met in my entire life. He acually wants to be with me n hold me. i never had somone like that..or never had someone that will whisper in my ear sweet little nothings or tell me how much they love me. He really is the best. im never ganna let him slip away. That night he tucked me in. he sorda made my bed n fixed my pillows n i got in n he covered me up he gave me the longest hug n a kiss good night n said..night baby, i love you. i was like night tony i love you too. n he left. ithought about him fer @ least 15 mins b4 i fell asleep. i just never wanna leave when im with him. 4th of july man. that really made me smile. ever sence ive got a cottage i went up there with fireworks. it didn really thrill me. like..we had some...n other ppl did too but it wasnt anything like highland park. but this year was different. we had way more fireworks n so did everyone else. But tony n his family spend WAY more then we do on them things so it wasnt nearly as much as they would have. so i was like..sorry that we dont have THAT many fireworks tony..n hes like..nah dont worry about it brittany..ur beauty makes up for the loss of fireworks. i was like ahhhh!!!! i looked @ him with like an open mouth not believing what he just said. i was speechless. i juss hugged him n kissed him...ALOT :) we juss held eachother for all of the fireworks. i loved it. everyonce in a hwile he would lean down n whisper..i love you. i love him so much! i cant even explain it. that night we stayed up till like 430 again watching movies n telling eachother how much we were inlove. i love that. n then he tucked me in again. so it was basicly the same night as last night. the next day we were possed to go home (which it was me n tonys 4 month) yayy..anyway..we didnt wanna go home..no one did..so we stayed n went out to dinner 2 romas. haha the sugar n lemons. awww shes mad! hahaha wow..good times. then we went out fer icecream after..the 2 kids on there bikes "you suckk!!!!" "go to hell" hahaha what an idiot. then we went home n went swimming in the pool. ;) Ian n Zak were always around. it was so gay. me n tony couldnt have like 1 minute alone. but w.e then we came home n did the same thing as all the other nights. haha i love it. i was so tierd though. Tonys like..britt you go to sleep ill stay awake so i can wake you up to get in ur bed (my dad would kill us if we fell asleep together) so im like alright..so i go to sleep..n i wake up n it light out! im like ooo shitttt!!!!!! i started shaking tony..im like..tony its light out you didnt wake me up..so i kissed him goodnight n ran in my room b4 someone got up. it was almost 6 and my dad gets up then. @ like 11 AM i was like TONY!!!! u fag..you didnt wake me up..he was just laughing. o well..hes so cute when he smiles. its hard not to smile back :) we went home yesterday @ like 2 n got here around 3. tony came over! haha we just layed around. :) n he wrote me somehting :) it was so cute i loved it. im hanging it on my wall next to a pic of him smiling big :) wow when i said this was ganna be a long entry..i wasnt lieing! haa stephanies coming to my house like next wed. or thurs. to stay. so we will see how that goes. she told me that she wont ALWAYS be around n i can go places without her. i hope so cuz i really dont wanna get annoyed with eachother. her n ariel lived toegther fer 2 months n it practicly ruind there friendship so i hope that doesnt happen to us. well my fingers hurt from typing so much so i think im ganna go. ill most likly write more today seeing its only like 1120 in the moring right now. :) i love you more then anything in the world tony..i promise. im never letting you go. I can let my hair down I say anything crazy I kno ull catch me right b4 i hit the ground with nothing but a t-shirt on I never felt so beautiful *baby* as i do now now that im with YOU you make me feel beautiful tony.