Last night Tony came over and he took me out for icecream. That was nice of him. He went home around 8:30 and Then I talked to him for a while. Got to sleep around 11. Today was an alright day. In health class we had the famous Love Vs. Infatuation day and I was scared like..Mr. Perricone would try or accidentally make me think that Me n Tonys love was really infatuation. Well thank god that didnt happen. The only catagory I really fall into with the whole infatuation thing is jealousy, but I say..who DOESN'T get jealous from time to time. He said somethings today that made me think about some jealous issues that I have and I'm going to fix things. He made me realize that Tony is doing something for me and only for me. It doesn't metter weather he finds someone else attractive or not, because even if he does..that doesnt change us. He still thinks I'm the most beautiful girl in the world and is more in love with me then ever:) So, I'm really ganna try with that. I seriously feel like I'm losing my friends. I REALLY REALLY feel that way and it hurts. Melissa doesn't even talk to me anymore..EVER! idk why though. We have the occasional wave now and then, but it sucks. We were like best friends and now its like..aquaitences. idk. And Ashley..idk either. We talk n stuff but it doesn't feel the same. I wanna start hanging out with them more and regaining our friendship. I hope that can happen. I miss them:( Stephanie has been there for me through alot of shit and I was a complete bitch to her about stupid shit over spring break when we had our fight or whatever. Well..of course I was all with Melissa and Ashley and against her and then when I wanted her back she accepted me. Like..Im lucky that she even considered being my friend after all the shit I put her though. Now thats a friend. I reall want her to know that i dooo love her and i ammmm sorry for all that dumb crap and that shes my best friend. well anyways..Then Ashley n Melissa thought that I just ditched them or something and ran to Stephanie. Thats not how it was, but it just seems that ever sence I became friends with Stephanie again they have been very distance from me. Yeah..it hurts. Tonys at work now and I have another docters app today that I forget to mention to him, so I'm ganna be calling him shortly to tell him. I'm in a bad mood now. This entry just got me wicked depressed.