tony came over yesterday. some stuff happend @ stephanies house that was bothering me for the whole day. ugh. i felt as if him n i werent the same as a couple. The way he held me n said i love you felt different..n not in a good way. idk how to explain that either. ugh. i was kinda down the rest of the day. I was laying down with tony..n he was hitting himself when i told him. he was so mad @ himself because he thinks its all his fault. ugh. im like please stop tony..hes like no..the girl, that i love more then anything..doesnt think i love her :'( ugh. it killed me to here that. i mean..i do know that he loves me..he loves me alot..its just..it felt different today. idk. i wish i could explain it better. theres so much more to it that im not expaining. but yea..tony kept saying how much he loved me n how hes better then everyone else cuz he has me. n he wants to be with me forever. ugh.. i love him so much..more then anything in the whole world. i promise!!!! ugh!!!! i cant even explain it. he means everything to me. my heart beats for him. n only for him ALWAYS! he means everything to me. i dont feel like writing anymore..i wrote most of what i wanted to say in my private entry last night anyway. ugh. Tonys ganna come over today..i had to argue with my mom fer more then a 1/2 hr to let her. shes ganna pick him up after work if he can get a ride home @ like 10. i wanna be in his arms n have him look me in the eye..n be like..brittany..i love you. n give me a real kiss. i love you so much tony.