yea..tony read my survey on the opposite sex n he said im like "dissing him" on alot of the questions. i really wasnt. hes perfect to me. more then anyone i have ever seen. hes the most gorgeous guy i have ever layed my eyes on. one thing that he said hurt..hes like "you cant call me perfect anymore" that killed..i got tears in my eyes. ugh. idk..but we had alittle arguemnt on it..n hes like lets just drop it. im like umm no cuz now i feel shitty n you dont think ur perfect to me anymore. so then he just put up an away n it was lile..i-m me when ur in a better mood untill then peace. i was like umm..n i told him a bunch of nice things about how i was sorry n loved him but i wouldbt be better until he thought he was perfect again. he wouldnt come back till like 5 mins. he was like..its fine w.e i gotta go..i love you bye n signed off. he didnt even say baby or anything to me so i know he wasnt fine with it. i didnt even egt a chnace to say bye to him. he said that he might call. if his mom syas its ok. i hope he does. i really wanna talk. i was crying earlier. this is so fucking dumb. the whole thing. it came from one fucking dumb survey n lead to a dumb somthing like this. ugh. im afraid if i make a big deal out of all this little small shit anymore, hes ganna get so sick of me and all the dumb arguments that are my fault and break up with me. i hate it. i hate feeling so scared of breaking up all the time. he means everything to me. ugh. im almost in tears just talking about this. without tony im fucking no one. im an alone piece of shit with out the most perfect guy alive. just the thought of us being apart tears me in half. i hate it. i love tony with all my heart n hes the most perfect person i have ever met in my life. im being so gay right now. i know i am. im over reacting alot. but who doesnt sometimes. idk..this whole thing is dumb n i think way into it. well tony left his house almost 15 mins ago so idk..maybe he'll be calling so. im just ganna go sit by the phone like a fucking pathetic loser. i love you so much. more then anything ever. i would never ever say ur perfect if you really wernt to me. when i say it, i mean it with all my heart. comments anyone? ::edit:: its 11:10..he hasnt called so i dont think hes ganna. his mom prolly said no. well this isnt a huge deal n i know we will be fine its just having it on my mind all night n not being able to talk to him about it. o well..i guess theres tomarrow although he might have forgotten about it by then. prolly not but i know i wont. Tony is my everything. i love him..i will till i die. thats just all there is to it. no matter wht.