wow im really tierd. i just thought id write again. Dustins really pissing me off. First he says hes moving to nevada then hes not cuz "he would never leave me" or w.e n now hes like im going. theres no point in staying bla bla bla etc etc. so yea..i really dont want him to move. not because i like him..NOO deff not the case..its just i have spent a great deal of time with this kid n i tell him everything n to think that he will be like 50 states away from me will make me sad. no one wants him to move but he thinks he will be better off but i cant stop him. n hes like..i dont think i would ever go back out with you..n im like umm ok? n i wasa sorda laughing..i didnt understand how you could go from wanting another chance to not wanting to be with me. but w.e i guess..hes ganna "move on".. ..dustin..i juss wanna let you know that im will always be here for you no matter what happens n that i will never forget you. i was telling tony some of this shit n he was like duh hes retarted etc. so yea..hes possed to spend the night @ his house tomarrow n i dont know if thats ganna happen. well..my parents are having some problems i guess n my dads moving out until they pass..but they dont know if it will. :( its my fault n i know it. i brought it on to them n now my dad is taking it out on my mom. i feel like shit. i dont care so much that my dads moving out..i could prolly care less..but its the fact that its partly my fault n hes taking it out on my mom. that hurts. im possed to go to the mall with tony n dan on wednesday...that is AFTER they get my bday present which happns to be next sunday n 6 days to be exact. :) im pissed cuz my music is being gay:( but im out..i think i have wrote enough..i love you more then anything in the world tony n i would be lost without your love. breath deep . talk slow . walk soft . let qo . qive biq . take less . dont count . just quess . act fair . think lonq . lauqh loud . sinq stronq . plan bold . dream far . kno who . you are