lets see..its time to update. Wednesday hmm..it was the second day of swimming in gym which i didnt swim again. i hate getting into bathing suits. just hate it. embaressing. then i just went through the whole day of school n came home after staying after with tony. always fun right there. i love being with him as much as i can. went home n talked to him online. did some homework n went to bed. that was all of wednesday. what an exciting day huh? Thursday lets see. woke up. went to school. saw tony. handed his note in at lunch time so he could ride my bus home at 230 and we did just that:) got there n kicked butt in halo 2. haha not! tony kicked my ass. emptyed out my binder for this next quarter n then my mom picked us up for zacks bowling match not to mention she saw my report card b4 hand and to top it off..she had already called my dad. anyways..at the bowling alley, yeah..lots of scumbags there. n uhh..tony saw some nice shoes he liked haha. naughty little kid you. zack did good but his team sucked. umm..took a little walk around endicott. when we were at the bowling alley..sitting on the steps. it was after my dad n me had a fight about my grades n how i was ganna be gounded i started to get upset. im not ganna be able to see tony like..anymore. i was scared he was ganna break up with me cuz we "dont see eachother enough" but he made the biggest promise to me ever. it was nice and re-asuring. hes the greatest. i stopped crying n then my dad took us to subway after tony tripped over the little stp next to the alley. haha cutie. saw amanda n jessie there. i guess jessie works there. umm..went back to my uncles house n ate n wathed the hottest 100 ppl thing. yeah. i got really jealous n got sorda crappy over it. what do you expect..ur sitting there watching ur boyfriend watch girls in bikinis. sucks man. then hes like some here. he took me to the bathroom n made me look in the mirror with him. he kept saying how im better then them n how im so beautiful n all that great sutff. DEFF made me feel better. DEEFFF. then we were laying next to the fie n i was like "ill love you no matter what. ever if we arent going out. if you break up with me ill wait for you" then hes like "brittany, if you break up with me..ill die for you. ill die waiting for you. i love you soo much" he looked me right in the eyes when he said it too. it was so nice. i melted. ugh. i will never forget that. ever. then we had to take tony home around 8 because my dad could have got called to work any minute n he didnt want to take the chances of still having tony. so then when i was at his door..i almost broke down into tears again. i kept them in n sucked it up though. we said goodbye n got in the truck. tony was ganna go wait for me at the end of the road so i could call the cell when i got home. so thats what i did after my dad almost started crying in the truck when he was writing the check out for my mom for me n zack. yeah..that sucks. i hate when hes about to cry. makes me want to. when i was talking to tony my dad beeped in n asked me if i was going to the ME football game with him tomarrow night n i said no cuz i didnt want to n zack had a b-day party to go to. so idk. i feel bad that his kids didnt wanna go with him. i hope hes ganna have a good time with sherry n justin though. when i got back on the line with tony we were talking n i started balling. about being grounded for like weeks n weeks n not being able to see him n hes ganna be grounded too. ugh. i couldnt stop crying. he got alittle upset too. it was sad. really sad. but then he had to go cuz he had to be in at 9. he said he would try to call me when he got home n if it was after 930 he wouldnt. well i just cried on his pillow n fell alseep. the phone rang at like 955 n it was tony. i got happy. then we started talking n he was being so nice n saying he was ganna cuddle with charlie the bear n my pillow all night. n then i started crying again cuz its just sad. idk. the way we were talking n idk. idc what anyone thinks if its dramatic or not. it was sad. maybe you had to be there? idk. but then he had to go so i just put my head in his pillow n tried to sleep. over all..it was a good day though. the crying doesnt make it a bad day. crying isnt bad all the time even though i hate it. i cant really explain that well. im outt though. ill write about today later cuz im ganna have some free time. i love you Anthony James Knopick--forever and always.