wow i made that last entry when we were having an awesome time wow that changed when he got back from work. I'm not going all into it with tons of details but i was mad because are time just kept getting cut short and alot of it was tony having to do his school paper which is fine but we waits till the last minute to do it. So then the printer was fucking up and he was pissed and being all gay and blahhhhh! I was being gay too but ah i dont wanna talk about it. we went outside in the front of my house and talked for a while. Came to the conclusion i need to be alittle more appriciative (which i TOTALLY agree with. was even thinking i didnt show it enough before this came up) and that he needs to be alittle more nice about things. I know I can bitch about dumb things sometimes and I dont mean too but I wish he would be nice to me and tell me im being gay without being gay himself. idk it just makes things alot easier. I thought at one point everything was ganna completely fall but tony picked everything up, sweet talked all the bad away, kissed me, hugged me, told me all the things i needed to hear and talked about everything. I really do need him and sometimes i take him for granted. Stephanie always tells me that hes the best n treats me soooo good and if i ever gave him up i would be so stupid. like..i know thats all true but it doesnt occur to me sometimes that he could be gone in a second. Hes like "Brittany, I love you more than anything. You are my whole life. I come see you everyday because I care about you. I could never let myself let you go. I could never let you let me go. I would kill myself if you left me. Im telling the truth..I would seriously be dead. I Love You so much and never wanna lose you" It was cute and you could tell he got alittle teary eyed. He meant every word he said and said everything right to my eyes and it was nice. Sometimes these fights can help. Makes us alittle stonger everyday knowing what we need to do. I really do love him. My last entry was not a lie. He has always been the one that I love and I will never leave him. I truely believe that we can get through anything. We have been through so much already..theres nothing we can't get through. Tony is the only person I have ever loved. I truley think he is my first true love. I need him and he needs me. It's the first time i ever felt that.