Well me ashley n melissa all woke up n tony called around 2 n siad he was coming over so yea. he came over with dan fer a while then we walked to burger king n met kristy there. yea.. my brothers a dumbass..he poured salt all ovetr the floor n we got in trouble..then 2 kids in baseball uniforms walked in with there 80 yr old gramma n everyones like.. I HATE BASEBALL wicked loud. haha..then they got there food n the gramma walked by n she was like.."baseball sucks? its better then the shit ur doing" n then she kissed her middle finger n pointed @ us..haha then tony got so mad n went out side n was like WHORE WHATT? hha n the lady just got in her care n rode away. what a bitch. then we came back here n juss chilled. me n tony held eachother alot n we "wrestaled"..haha i love fooling around. TOny was stroking my hair n i was like what? n hes like..what..i cant admire ur beauty? i was like awww..he called me beautiful ALLL day. we were in the little thing by my front door. omg..he kept telling me how he was incomplete without me n wants to see me everyday. he told me how inlove with me he is n wants to be with me forever. i really am inlove with him. i dont care about the age difference..idc about how long we haveb een together or not together..idc about our pasts..idc about anything as long as we are together. he means the world to me n im so scared of losing him. i really dont want to get hurt again..i mean..i cant offord another break up. This one will be big..biggger then the last one..im so far in with tony n im closer to him then i was with anyone. i can tell him anything..i mean..somthings might be hard but he eventually makes me comfterable with telling him. ugh. i wanna be with him every night n wake up with him every morning. i wanna be in his arms..have him holding me all through the night. thats my wish. thats all i want. i need him..n im so inlove. well after tonys mom came n like 5 mins of not letting eachother go..me melissa n ashley went to BK n melissa didnt feel good. i felt bad. she looked upset n i wanted to talk to her but i didnt wanna annoy her. so we walked her home n then hear i am now.. i cant stop thinking about tony. im so attached..sometimes i thnk thats like the greatest thing in the world cuz i know he feels the same..but other times i think its bad cuz its esier to get hurt n its ganna hirt more IF somthing DOES even happen. ugh. ive never felt so much for someone b4. idc how long me n tony have been together..it feels like i have been with him all my life...i cant even explain it. My life wouldnt be complete without him...there would be a gigantic hole without him here..im so unbeleivably deeply inlove with tony. im ganna go..im boring you. ill write more tomarrow..i might be going to shadowbrook after school to see *him* so yea. L i f e is 4 living - i live mine juss 4 y.o.u L o v e s 4 giving - i give mine 2 y.o.u D r e a m s are 4 dreaming- i dream 4 y.o.u H e a r t s are 4 beating-mine beats 4 y.o.u.