well last night tony got here around 8 and he just held me for the longest time. he read the past entry that i had written and was scared that i truly wanted to die or something. That was not true. i dont want to die. Last night i can admit might have been dramtic but i couldnt help it. everything just sort of just kept coming out and i couldnt stop it. idk. but tony was upset about it and was mad/confused and sad. the only thing he could really do is just lay with me and tell me how much he loves me a reasure me that everythings ganna be ok which is what he did. he made me call stephanie even though he doesnt even like her. he just said he wants me to be happy and he knows that if me n stephanie work shit out thats one less thing i will be stressed about. so i did. we both said sorry and laughed alittle about some things and tony was right..i did feel alittle better. for the rest of the time we layed there and laughed and "play fought" and yeah just a good time. i love hearing "i love you" from him. it makes everything go away. The best part of the night was when me n tony fell alseep toegther in eachothers arms on the bean bag. we were asleep for over and hour and it was just so amazing. he was behind me with his arms wrapped around me with his legs tangled up in mine. it was simply incredible. my mom came down and woke me up at 11:15 and im like baby wake up. and he just looked so fricken cute. i had to lay there for like a min and just watch him. it was the cutest thing i ever saw. well..he was supposed to be back at dustins house by 11. he left my house at like 1130? yeah i havnt talked to him sence but i hope hes not in trouble. but wow. falling asleep in tonys arms is so relaxing and i felt so safe just being there with him and knowing how much love we have for eachother. i would have no clue what i woudl do without him. everything seems to be just perfect. After that i got on the phone with melissa for alittle while and i was seriously near death from choking on a peanut. scary man. haha melissa laughed at me. butthead. hmm..then i just crashed in the basement again. i seriously want this to be my room. this is the second night ive slept down here. i slept till noon. a record for me on a couch. usually i wake up at like 9 on the couch, but i guess im getting used to it:O) well its like almost 3 and tony hasnt called yet..hes still sleeping. but at least i know hes looking cute:) hehe well im ganna go. i have the house to myself cuz everyones gone so hm who knows what ill do. ta ta for now=)