didnt get alot of sleep last night. i have alot of shit on my mind. Mostly with my parents n the missed weekeend without tony. I CANT take my familys shit anymore. i mean..i can..i just dont WANNA deal with anymore. My moms nice but miserable..n my dads a Dickhead n miserable. I feel like my family cant even get along anymore n sometimes i feel like im in the middle or its my fault. idk..im just sick of it..i want everything to be ok one way or the other. dan n Tony are ganna ride their bikes here to see me. im so excited to see tony. i miss him more then anything. Me n Dustin got in another fight about tony today. god..it makes me feel like shit because i know its all my fault. im sick of fighting with him about tony. Dustin was all like tony has his head way to far up ur ass n doesnty have time for any of his friends..n im like wtf are you talking about..tony is with dan, joe n ryan all the time..n hes like no hes not he always with you..n im like ur just mad that now i have a bf that atucaly wants to see me n takes advantage of the time he can get with me. n hes like me..jealous of tony..fuck that..he can lick my left nut..n im like dont fucking talk about him that way..n hes like whats the difference..we dont see eachother anyway..n im like its not like you try..n hes like i call him all the time n he doesnt return my phone calls..n im like bullshit..you never try to call him..why dont you try coming over there..n hes like he wont be there..he'll be @ his bitches house..n im like w.e dustin..im not ganna fight anymore about this..lets just say everythings my fault..ok? n hes like fine..n we havnt talked sence..so yea..w.e maybe it is my fault..idk..all i know is that me n tony are happy n all i wanna do is keep it that way. well im out..im really tierd so im ganna lay down. i love you so much tony..more then anything..ill go through hell n back for you..through thick n thin no matter what. ill always be by ur side loving you.