yea..byebye birthday. im 15 though:) i sat home all day today n had to listen to dustin yelling @ me. thats always a pleasure. i used to think it wasnt a big deal if i went out with tony..n now it makes me think..dustin keeps yelling @ me n telling me its my fault. it starts to sink in even though tony says its not @ all. god..i dont regret going out with tony..its just i wished i thought alittle more about tony n dustin n what it would do to both of them. i really didnt mean to hurt anyone. i love tony more then anything n im NOT giving him up..idc if that sounds selfish or not! we both deserve to be happy n we are with eachother. im not letting him go!! decided not to go on vaca with ashley. it was getting way to complicated n we would have to stay until like saturday n i ddint wanna do that. i would miss tony more then anything. i hate being away from him. i need to be with him. i love you baby. dad moved out today. ya. it was kinda sad. he let me know he was always ganna be here for me no matter what n i can call him for anything @ anytime. he was really torn apart by leaving..but i think thats what our family needs. talked to stephanie fer a while on the phone. she put me in a way better mood then i was when i got off with dustin. she always finds someway to make me smile..if its outta stupidity..or reminds me how much tony loves me. she really knows what shes talking about with problems..n usally gives good advice. im real lucky to have her. shes coming over tomarrow n staying the night. then in the morning my mom will drive us to stephs moms house. so me her tony n dan can chill er somthing. should be fun..but we'll see. well i was ganna make this entry small but i guess i had more to say then i thought. so im out..ill rpolly write more later tonight so just leave it. I love you more then anything in the whole world tony. we can make it through anything. anything we have to go through only makes us stronger.