Tonys ganna pick me up to go to the mall to get pictures @ like 3 then were ganna come back here till like 830 then my moms ganna take him home.i wanna spend seriosuly alot of time witht his kid..i just seriously hope that today is ganna be a good day. im really scared it wont be:( i wanna have this day be like thursday, friday and saturday. all smiles, laughs hugs and kisses. no fucking crying or yelling. ugh. please let this be a good day. i dont wanna fight anymore. i love him more then anything in the world. when we are fighting or somthing, it feels like my whole world is just crashing down. i know it seems dramatic but i cant help it. the only thing that makes me the most sad is not being on good terms with the one i love most. i could cry right now, but im forcing myslef not to.