So 11th grade is almost over. This year has flown by so fast I can't even explain. Im quite sad about it because I look back to when I was a freshmen and it feels like it was just yesterday. idk..Im worried because I'm still not exactly sure what I want to do with my life yet and by now..I should know. Senior year is coming up so quick. I have about 3 more months and I'm back in school as a senior. Senior year is ganna go by so mcuh quicker too. I know it. Then collage. Then im an adult with a family? idk..i know it sounds crazy when its said out loud..but if you really think about it, its not that far away. Graduating is right around the corner and then I start my real life. I have to break away from my family short after and really learn to take care of myself. This sounds dumb..but I've honestly been pretty sheltered and had everything taken care of for me and I'm worried about doing everything by myself. right now..Im kind of not worried about tony because i have my own shit going on that I need to do. I have to worry about me and what im doing with my life more than I need to worry about his. Thats his job. I want to have a good life, go to collage, get a good job, have kids, have money. Idk..i have this dream life which might sound so pathetic, but I just dont want a shitty life. I want to work for a good one. Many people might not understand the way that I feel. It's hard to explain sometimes, but I just know what I need to do. Summers ganna be awesome. This is my last summer because next summer..i go to collage in august. ugh thats scary. So many things have happened this year. Lisence, car, relationship, friends..just everything. A lot has had an impact on me. I have learned so much about me and the people around me. I have learned to except that people change..sometimes I need to let it go..sometimes i need to let them go. I just know what I want..and I can't lose sight of my dreams and ambitions. I know I have alot going for me and I dont need anything standing in my way. Well I have skipped around alot on what I'm talking about, but I had alot to say. Things have just taught me more about myself and what I want and need. One thing I will never ever forget from everything is to never let ur friends get away from you. They will be there through everything even though a guy may not be. Brittany Blits has been here for me through alot of tough shit (not just reltaionship stuff) and has NEVER once left my side. Ive learned that Brittany is the best friend I will ever have and I wont compramise our friendship for anything. She really makes up the other half of me. I can't explain it..but I know I wouldnt have made it without her. I wouldnt be the same person if she havnt of befriended me. Me n Britt have went through so much together and I just can't imagine my life without her now. I feel kinda better by saying everything that I have through this entry. But im leaving now. It was nice to write again.